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Hey blulighters i had something puzzling happen to me last week.:(

so i took a 2 month break from ecstasy. and i was VERY excited to see a favorite group of trance artists of mine that were coming to LA to broadcast their 350th radio show, it was just me and my GF

anyways i took 1 1/2 pill of Pokeballs and was ready to have the time of my life
30 mins pass and i feel it creeping up i felt excited, my GF took 1 pokeball of the same pill stamp.
i decided to sit next to an air vent since it was VERY warm in there. and i hate the heat. i sat down and got a lightshow... after that we got up and something hit me

i didnt peak at all but i actually had the opposite effect. i felt really sad, alone. like nobody liked me, no one wanted to talk to me. i mean yea everyone was cheering and exicted but i felt alone.
towards the end of the night we ended up both taking a total of 2 pills each. each of em pokeballs. i should probably note i drank earlier stopped drinking @ 9 and was sober @ 12 when i dropped


I dont understand what happened. i didnt expect my night to go like this at all!
is it possible to feel the opposite of ecstasy while rolling??
 
How did your girlfriend respond to the pills? If she felt the same then they might have been imitation pokes.
 
Sounds like fake poke's to me. They were prob pipes.
I've seen pipes cause people to have depression during their said 'roll'
 
idk most actual pipe reports usually have you throwing up and with bad headaches.

i didnt feel sick
i actually had somewhat the floaty feeling of ecstasy. i just had no empathy.
my next and possibly LAST rave ( depedning how things go) will bee on New years.

i plan to laod up with 5-HTP since this event i didnt and vitamins. hopefully things will turnout better
 
Not all pipes will have the same side-effects...
It sounds a little stupid to throw out the idea that it could be a pipe because you didnt experience 'throwing up' and 'bad headaches
When i first got into mdma some friends and I got piped and we didnt throw up or have bad headaches, but we had random depression and my friend had to run from us crying thinking everyone was out to get her basically.
Sounds like pipes.
 
Sounds like you didn't have MDMA. I seriously don't understand this "Pokeball" hype. Unless you test what you have, you have no clue what you may be ingesting. The print, name of the pill, or the colour don't affect the actual contents of the pill. Everytime I hear about "Pokeballs" I just get disappointed, because you're essentially spreading poor information, by implying that you can tell the contents of the pill without testing it.

Buy a testing kit. Sure sometimes you may feel slightly depressed on MDMA (when I broke my friends lamp on MDMA I felt terrible) but you can easily snap out of it and it isn't an over-whelming sensation which ruins your night.

When I took pills and didn't test, I got piped once and you can feel a variety of things, but I felt similar to you; alone, slightly depressed and I wanted to be off drugs. I felt sick to my stomach and couldn't sleep.
 
MDMA can do unexpected things. Once after a long break I took a fairly high dose at an after hours dance. I got uncomfortably high, and then at one point this stripper came out in this glass box and stood under a shower while dancing and slowly undressing. A group of people gathered around to watch, and somehow when I looked around and saw all this I was overcome with this unearthly feeling of crushing guilt and soulless emptiness and I had a "psychedelic flash" that I was in a crushed, hot room full of depraved people leering at someone's naked body. That was one of the few times I've had the psychedelic effects of MDMA suddenly kick into high gear, and it can be anything but fun.
 
Why does everyone have to point to pill contents right away, even after the op said his gf had one of the best rolls off it. Do you just ignore that important fact that his gf rolled balls off the same pills. And i can believe the pokeball hype, they honestly are supreme presses of pills. If you have a legit pokeball which is super easy to tell apart from a fake, than you are almost ALWAYS in for a good roll. They all come from the same presser or group of pressers, which is why they usually have similar contents. Half of all the pills i have ever dropped have been pokeballs, and they always have that similar 'clean' rolling balls sensation. I do admit some of them have made me have a little trip, as in lights carrying huge trails but that is always good.
Now to the OP, you could have had something on your mind. Who knows, i mean mdma is usually a set good experience. But you could have been effected weirdly that particular time, i don't know how but it makes some sense.
 
F1n1shed said:
Why does everyone have to point to pill contents right away, even after the op said his gf had one of the best rolls off it.
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Lulwat?

"Yo dude, I find these cool pills bro, lets take' em and get fucked up!"
"Ummm... sure, do you know what's in them"
"C'mon dude! Why does everyone point to the contents of the pills all the time bro? Shit'll get you fucked up!"

Seriously though - why wouldn't you talk about the contents of the pill, when someone has had an out-of-the-ordinary MDMA experience, when they a) don't even know for sure it is MDMA b) don't test their pills and c) go off the descriptive qualities of the pill to try and guess the contents of it.

It's people like you I was talking about. Based off what you wrote above, it seems like you're the type of person running around spreading false information, saying things like, "Dude, all speckled pills are MDMA" or "All Pokeballs contain MDMA".

I'm honestly flabbergasted here. Do you not see how what you're implying can harm other people, as well as yourself? Buy a testing kit.

EDIT: Do you realize that if someone puts in the effort to manufacture MDMA, it would be easy as hell (considering you have the equipment) to replicate a "pokeball".
 
K-dazed you probably are not in the area where pokeballs are, so you don't know the hype. And that sucks for you because they are truly wonderful pills, and i know my shit. I am not a retard who runs around thinking pipes get you fucked up, so they are awesome as you are suspecting.

I am just pointing out that his gf has a wonderful roll off the pills, which can give you a hint that maybe they got the legit pokeballs. Instead of post after post where people keep saying you got piped, why doesn't someone think of something else to say? I mean it is uncommon to have a bad time on mdma but i have seen it and read about it. So yea umm fuck off, just because i don't test every single pill i get doesn't mean i don't know the contents. I am super careful about what i get now because i have been piped before. There is something called pill reports which has told me what was in basically.. every single pill i have consumed.
 
I don't think you took mdma...is it even possible not to feel good on good mdma? seriously.
 
^ yes its very possible not to feel good on mdma.. ive had several depressing rolls on what i know for a fact was pure mdma. after i lost the initial magic, rolling became kind of a downer for me. i would get tremendous amounts of empathy still but without the comfort of the euphoria.. this can be a very depressing experience because it opens me up to all sorts of emotions but the love isnt there anymore to make it all ok.
 
That's not a typical MDMA experience but I don't see why it would be impossible to feel depressed. It is somewhat psychedelic and has the ability to enhance our current emotional state. If that happens to include sadness then I can see how it would make the sadness more intense. Maybe what you needed most that evening was to become aware of some more unpleasant emotions.

I've also had bad anxiety on MDMA when using it in an uncomfortable environment. So while it's not as volatile as psychedelics, there are still some things to take into consideration to determine what kind of experience you will have.
 
could have just been your mind state bro, ive had some depressing rolls that never made me want to roll again, that was positively on real mdma, i just associate depressing rolls with current mindstate and location.
its happened to me
 
I get like that at events or rolling with people I dont know, I just second guess everything I say and do and just end up sitting there all quiet and awkward. Ecstasy for me is not enjoyable unless I'm kicking with a few close friends or a girl. Taking a break hasn't really helped me, I only roll off of Molly now less than once a month and most of the time when I go to a club/event/party on it i just wanna go home and I don't want to talk to anyone.... But if were just kicking it I have a fun ass time.
 
that happened to me once when i was rolling. it was my second time rolling in a week, and i think it was because my seretonin was still fucked up though, so i didnt get the happiness rushes that mdma normally causes.
 
burn2shine said:
I get like that at events or rolling with people I dont know, I just second guess everything I say and do and just end up sitting there all quiet and awkward.
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Honestly i think this is what it was. i know the pills were legit.
but it was just me and my girlfriend by ourselves.

like i was in a room full of strangers i didn't know and didnt feel like i connected with anyone.


i should also mention the past 2 times i rolled wernt so good either.
1 on my birthday, but i was stuck in a car in a drive-in movie not bieng able to move

and another was at a massive event during the fall. but it was so hot that day, 100 degrees during the day and 80 at night. i couldnt concentrate on my roll or music for more then a few second because i felt so HOT trying to cool down. :p

maybe that added some anxiety this time?
 
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