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Please help me ive had such a hard life theres so much hurt remorse pain from things in my life. My childhood was bad i was hit with a belt when i got in trouble at school. It's been almost two years since my father passed away and I'm still hurting i miss my dad so much. One of my best friends killed himself cos he was adopted and couldnt deal with that..he never met his real parents...now im really contemplating suicide but i wanna make sure i kill myself not just wake up in hospital. I dont know if i can kill myself though i know things will get better and my dad is in a better place now. How do i come to terms with my fathers death? I write stuff like 'i miss u so much dad' as a way of venting but it doesn't do much help. Im also overweight and really ugly no guy would be with me. So lonely right now.