Mariposa
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Mods - I hope you do not mind that I went ahead and started this - feel free to nuke/edit/modify as necessary. I'd like to carry on the tradition. 
In the tradition of Octsober and NOvember, this is a thread where we can talk about our goals for our use, whether or not it consists of abstinence, cutting down, using differently, or any modifications to unhealthy habits we have picked up over time.
My own story is available in the Octsober and NOvember threads. In short, I abstained from alcohol in October, relapsed horrendously in November, and now it is a new month that I have started clean from everything except benzodiazepines (prescribed and used as directed - and needed for a taper).
I got off to a running start in Octsober and really believed I would clean up my act and keep it that way, but I didn't in November. My goals for this month are as follows:
-Keep away from the bottle in general. I think I pushed absolute abstinence on myself, and it worked for a time, but let's face it - I like a glass of wine once in awhile in social situations. My goal is not to turn it into 10. Every day I go without alcohol, I get a pat on the back. Every day I drink, I must think about why I drink, what my triggers are, and exercise extreme self-control.
-I will be out of town and around my cousins for half the month, some of whom are small, and be a good and sober example for them. The one that is old enough to have a glass of wine or so - keep an eye out for her. She has horrendous OCD where she drives all night as a compulsion, so I need to be sober to help keep her safe.
-Not get in a car with anyone who has been drinking or using. This should be easy. I do not myself drive intoxicated.
-Absolutely no hard liquor, and this includes at parties.
-Cut down on smoking both weed and clove cigarettes. Both have gotten a bit out of hand (though I haven't smoked weed in a week, just a couple edibles).
-Not give into family drama or say an unkind word. Take time outs when necessary to deal with feelings of anger or frustration.
-Maintain a healthy and regular diet.
-No excessive partying at parties; knowing my limits with substances that are not alcohol, including my scripts.
-Get on an antidepressant that works for me and helps me be strong and happy.
-Be of a cheerful overall disposition; the holidays do not have to suck. Seek beauty and happiness in everyday life, and pass that to others without being too Pollyanna.
-Save money. I have done well with this, but I need to do better.
-Not overdo it with my sprained ankle and stay off opiates. I have done this well in November (kicked Tramadol to the curb) and need to continue.
So, TDS, this may be the toughest month so far for a lot of us. Here is where we keep each other motivated. I think the mods would appreciate if no triggers were posted.
What are everyone's goals for this month?
In the tradition of Octsober and NOvember, this is a thread where we can talk about our goals for our use, whether or not it consists of abstinence, cutting down, using differently, or any modifications to unhealthy habits we have picked up over time.
My own story is available in the Octsober and NOvember threads. In short, I abstained from alcohol in October, relapsed horrendously in November, and now it is a new month that I have started clean from everything except benzodiazepines (prescribed and used as directed - and needed for a taper).
I got off to a running start in Octsober and really believed I would clean up my act and keep it that way, but I didn't in November. My goals for this month are as follows:
-Keep away from the bottle in general. I think I pushed absolute abstinence on myself, and it worked for a time, but let's face it - I like a glass of wine once in awhile in social situations. My goal is not to turn it into 10. Every day I go without alcohol, I get a pat on the back. Every day I drink, I must think about why I drink, what my triggers are, and exercise extreme self-control.
-I will be out of town and around my cousins for half the month, some of whom are small, and be a good and sober example for them. The one that is old enough to have a glass of wine or so - keep an eye out for her. She has horrendous OCD where she drives all night as a compulsion, so I need to be sober to help keep her safe.
-Not get in a car with anyone who has been drinking or using. This should be easy. I do not myself drive intoxicated.
-Absolutely no hard liquor, and this includes at parties.
-Cut down on smoking both weed and clove cigarettes. Both have gotten a bit out of hand (though I haven't smoked weed in a week, just a couple edibles).
-Not give into family drama or say an unkind word. Take time outs when necessary to deal with feelings of anger or frustration.
-Maintain a healthy and regular diet.
-No excessive partying at parties; knowing my limits with substances that are not alcohol, including my scripts.
-Get on an antidepressant that works for me and helps me be strong and happy.
-Be of a cheerful overall disposition; the holidays do not have to suck. Seek beauty and happiness in everyday life, and pass that to others without being too Pollyanna.
-Save money. I have done well with this, but I need to do better.
-Not overdo it with my sprained ankle and stay off opiates. I have done this well in November (kicked Tramadol to the curb) and need to continue.
So, TDS, this may be the toughest month so far for a lot of us. Here is where we keep each other motivated. I think the mods would appreciate if no triggers were posted.
What are everyone's goals for this month?
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I've got bud, but it's the worst thirties that i've had probably since I was in florida 
I hope I make it through tonight without a drink or any pills.