Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
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True!
I think even alcohol use is illegal over there so be careful.
I think even alcohol use is illegal over there so be careful.
True!
I think even alcohol use is illegal over there so be careful.
They still have a long ways to go with women's lib, but in dubai they are building one of the most beautiful cities I have ever seen. If you cannot respect their tenacity and industriousness then you sir have no respect.
How do people deal with the psychological addiction to opiates?
I'm approaching 10 days without opiates and the last vestiges of the physical withdrawal are pretty much gone, and they weren't that bad to begin with (compared to what other people have dealt with...if anything I just kept myself running on self-loathing for putting myself in the position of being a dopesick druggie...too much "white trash pride", as a friend of mine puts it). Yeah I felt like crap, but I'm used to feeling like crap just because of my own physiology. So that's pretty much concluded.
The psychological addiction is intense, though. I've come to the conclusion that the only reason I'm not out there banging dope is because I don't have access where I'm currently living. I never believed it before I started IVing but there's a perverse fascination with that particular ROA...I find myself fantasizing about drawing up that golden liquid into a rig, registering the vein and watching the drug get stained crimson with blood, before pressing the plunger down and *boom* It's actually really disturbing and I've never really dealt with it before. It's partially about the rush, which is a big part of the appeal, but not entirely about the high that results from shooting. I smoke more than I shoot (the smoking ROA being part of my "treatment" for my own insomnia, which usually involved a combination of cannabis, a few hits of heroin & zolpidem...shooting always got me too high for real sleep, oddly enough) but there's no fetish involved in smoking for me, although the thought of a few hits of acrid tar vapor makes me practically salivate at the moment.
It's odd because shooting always made me feel bad on a "spiritual level" but I CAN'T STOP THINKING ABOUT IT! Aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh! 8(