BlueSaffron
Bluelighter
Hard day. Living with a psycho sucks. And people wonder why i cant stay clean.
Hard day. Living with a psycho sucks. And people wonder why i cant stay clean.
You have youre immodium and kratom right??It's been 52 hours since my last line of dope.
Suboxen (very small amounts) and booze have kept me down enough to fight the cravings. Its not sober but, hey, its something...
After 3 years straight i think I've finally hit the point of being the fuck over it and all the bullshit that comes with it. But the stomach cramps....
Oh, the stomach cramps.... I can barely walk :/
I never knew how addictive poppy seed tea could be... I have been using it "recreationally" on the weekends, but now I crave it everyday. I was so sick from it that it made me vomit, hallucinate, sleep for about 20 hours etc.
This was a tough year, and I was on and off with opiates. Maybe January will be better for me, but December is so fucking hard right now.
Together we will beat this this week. We will sweat a lot, we will make mistakes, but we will move on and be as clean as we get,lol big love, cfz
I am having a really shitty day. Really bad anxiety, some of the worst I have ever had. I only slept like 2 hours last night which makes the anxiety exponentially worse. I have already talked myself into relapsing although I haven't done it just yet. I will likely end up getting either some weed or beer (or both) and telling myself that at least I am not taking opiates or benzos, this is true but it is a cop out. I've justified it in my head already by saying it is almost the new year so I will just fuck up for now since this year has already been wasted and start over for 2015.
fuck