Death of love and trust

[Ariela]

I was always your biggest fan
When you kicked me, I wept but I also believed
When you hated me, I hated myself
When you left me, I died inside
I always forgave you
But you never forgave me for being me
I always tried to change myself
But you never tried to change how you felt
Now I look back
At all of the broken promises and wasted tears
And I see who you really are
You hate me because I am you
So no longer will I be your fan
No longer will you kick me, because I won't be there
If you hate me, I will turn the hate back onto you
And you can't leave me, because I was gone long ago

 

[Dagny]

So well written! So sad sweetie, and all that anger. I've been in a place like that before, and it sounds like you're already on your way to healing. Each day that passes means less pain, hun, I hope you feel better soon.

 

[KHsweety03]

^ yeah.

 

[Angelight]

wow...truly excellent.
Its nice to see you around this neck of the woods

 

[FoX]

That is absolutely beautiful... and the words ring so true.
Someone made me feel exactly the same way a few weeks ago... it sucks when you realize what you formerly treasured has evaporated.
Always know that I am your number one fan.
[ 04 May 2002: Message edited by: FoX ]

 

[Ariela]

Thanks to all of you. This poem was a long time in coming.