i wrote a letter to fucktwat, so i might as well write you your own letter instead of making fucktwat's letter take a more drastic turn. and since i am posting this in blogs instead of showing it to you, it might make following this whole saga easier to follow. tho i suppose to be entirely accurate, i need to write to vgoraz too. as the 3 of you all play parts in this...
tho i have to wonder how much you care about the other two. i know you are aware of the both of them, and know that they are why i go to seattle all the time. but do you know how tenuous our (me and you) relationship is at times? and how much the two other people in this saga affect my actions?
i don't know how you wouldn't be aware, it isn't like we haven't talked about these things before. and i am not exactly that great when it comes to lying. but i don't see how you could be aware of things and make no effort to change.
i quite enjoy how we both have our own lives. but sometimes i would like to do a little bit more with you. like the stuff you tell me to go to seattle if i want to do. i am kinda certain that other marriages don't have random people to do the things the spouse doesn't want to do. i don't know. i guess in some ways i have everything i want at the moment.
this letter is a lot harder to write than the one about fucktwat. i guess i am more used to being open with him and expressing myself. i sort of gave up doing that with you a long time ago. the conversations never really went anywhere, so i just stopped having them with you. it is true that this has played out time and time again. maybe you are viewing me with the same exacerbation that i view fucktwat. all i know is that stuff has been stagnant for awhile.
you are funny. i like how you can follow my line of thinking and know what i am trying to get at. it is extremely useful when we play a game like cranium or trivial pursuit. i find it amusing to go to your shows and watch your bands play. i find you atractive, even if you look slightly gay half the time
you definitely help when it comes to clothing shopping.
but i don't like how you never have anything nice to say about me. how we seem unable to talk about certain issues. i am sure you can write a bitter letter about me. it is why i think an outside party might be useful. someone to be there to mediate when we start talking about heated issues. so you don't get pissy and i don't cease talking.
some people talk about the gorilla in the room. i feel like we are constantly dodging a heard of elephants in the room. sometimes everything seems like an utter farce.
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this is still unfinished. i really don't know if i will finish it. i am finding it surprisingly hard to write. i keep comparing what i am writing here to what i wrote about fucktwat. it is far easier to write about him. that bothers me. tho to be fair, i would maybe be able to get out a sentence if it came to trying to write a letter to vgoraz.
tho i have to wonder how much you care about the other two. i know you are aware of the both of them, and know that they are why i go to seattle all the time. but do you know how tenuous our (me and you) relationship is at times? and how much the two other people in this saga affect my actions?
i don't know how you wouldn't be aware, it isn't like we haven't talked about these things before. and i am not exactly that great when it comes to lying. but i don't see how you could be aware of things and make no effort to change.
i quite enjoy how we both have our own lives. but sometimes i would like to do a little bit more with you. like the stuff you tell me to go to seattle if i want to do. i am kinda certain that other marriages don't have random people to do the things the spouse doesn't want to do. i don't know. i guess in some ways i have everything i want at the moment.
this letter is a lot harder to write than the one about fucktwat. i guess i am more used to being open with him and expressing myself. i sort of gave up doing that with you a long time ago. the conversations never really went anywhere, so i just stopped having them with you. it is true that this has played out time and time again. maybe you are viewing me with the same exacerbation that i view fucktwat. all i know is that stuff has been stagnant for awhile.
you are funny. i like how you can follow my line of thinking and know what i am trying to get at. it is extremely useful when we play a game like cranium or trivial pursuit. i find it amusing to go to your shows and watch your bands play. i find you atractive, even if you look slightly gay half the time
you definitely help when it comes to clothing shopping.but i don't like how you never have anything nice to say about me. how we seem unable to talk about certain issues. i am sure you can write a bitter letter about me. it is why i think an outside party might be useful. someone to be there to mediate when we start talking about heated issues. so you don't get pissy and i don't cease talking.
some people talk about the gorilla in the room. i feel like we are constantly dodging a heard of elephants in the room. sometimes everything seems like an utter farce.
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this is still unfinished. i really don't know if i will finish it. i am finding it surprisingly hard to write. i keep comparing what i am writing here to what i wrote about fucktwat. it is far easier to write about him. that bothers me. tho to be fair, i would maybe be able to get out a sentence if it came to trying to write a letter to vgoraz.