Burnt Offerings
Bluelight Crew
Often I feel like one of the most problematic issues associated with drug addiction is the environment you eventually get placed in, involving nobody but fellow dope users who don't give a shit about you other than the fact that you either are a way for them to make money, or you supply them with the drugs they like. Admittedly I've associated myself with people I have a personal dislike of just so I could get high, so I'm hardly a saint when it comes to this either.
However, this has led to me having basically no friends. all of my so-called friends at the moment are "dope friends". My few interpersonal relationships that were pre-drugs all involve people who don't live in the city I currently reside in, either that or they moved (can't say as I blame them). It's Saturday night and, like many weekend nights lately, I've debated going out to the bar and trying to meet some new people, or at least re-connect with some of the people I used to know before my self-imposed "exile". But just staying home and getting high pretty much always wins. It's like an instant remedy to having no relationships. Heroin is especially terrible in regards to this phenomenon, I've found.
I desperately want to make friends, have sexual relationships with women again, and have meaningful interpersonal relationships with people who don't use drugs (or at least who don't snort methamphetamine and heroin on a regular basis). I'm struggling with this in a big way though. Can anyone offer any guidance? I know that I should probably go about this by pursuing other interests of mine, but sadly I feel like I don't have any real hobbies or interests anymore.
However, this has led to me having basically no friends. all of my so-called friends at the moment are "dope friends". My few interpersonal relationships that were pre-drugs all involve people who don't live in the city I currently reside in, either that or they moved (can't say as I blame them). It's Saturday night and, like many weekend nights lately, I've debated going out to the bar and trying to meet some new people, or at least re-connect with some of the people I used to know before my self-imposed "exile". But just staying home and getting high pretty much always wins. It's like an instant remedy to having no relationships. Heroin is especially terrible in regards to this phenomenon, I've found.
I desperately want to make friends, have sexual relationships with women again, and have meaningful interpersonal relationships with people who don't use drugs (or at least who don't snort methamphetamine and heroin on a regular basis). I'm struggling with this in a big way though. Can anyone offer any guidance? I know that I should probably go about this by pursuing other interests of mine, but sadly I feel like I don't have any real hobbies or interests anymore.
