malakaix
Bluelighter
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I just realized I've already posted in this thread to the OP. lol Blame it on senility.
I have done this one more then a few occasions haha.
I just wanted to come back to this thread. Much of what has been said here resonates with me and as I re-read over some of the replies the words shared offer a renewed perspective. As time goes on this seems to bother me less. I don't believe it will ever cease as long as i'm alive and circumstances may easily throw me back into the depths of that existential despair but it seems through been forced to acknowledge the absolute insignificance of my existence and been forced to sit with that for many years.. I have come to appreciate more in life. I care less.. but I care deeply. There's a detachment from the noise but a focus on the music.
I think this may of come about from pure exhaustion. I can no longer fight against the void. I no longer believe in my own story.