Dealing with dealing.....

[eye kant spehll]

So I have had a problem in the past with dealing, and the opportunity sometimes arises still and my mind is programmed to go right for it, for that quick buck and to make someone happy......even though I'm sober and don't touch drugs anymore. I was wondering if you guys had an opinion on being addicted to dealing.....obviously it's not physically dependent, (as far as I know) but just to be prone to make that couple bucks which isn't worth as much as it used to be, by doing that exchange. Another thought on why, would be that the certain amount that is made off whatever, used to be a large amount back then......now it isn't, but since it was a large amount it makes it seem like it still is and makes it seem like theres a big incentive even though there isn't. It's really easy and it's one of the first things in my mind, even before going back to drugs, which were raver and burner scene type of drugs. I don't know, I just thought Id talk about it, cause it comes up all the time and fucks with me and Id like to at least see that others relate to me and that I'm not some weird fucking customer magnet or whatever you wanna call it. Alright, well just let me know your thoughts, and changing my group of friends is not an option, although I am letting the main ones who know most of them in the social circle not to hit me up anymore. So yea let me hear what you think. Thanks.

 

[turbonegro]

So I have had a problem in the past with dealing, and the opportunity sometimes arises still and my mind is programmed to go right for it, for that quick buck and to make someone happy......even though I'm sober and don't touch drugs anymore. I was wondering if you guys had an opinion on being addicted to dealing.....obviously it's not physically dependent, (as far as I know) but just to be prone to make that couple bucks which isn't worth as much as it used to be, by doing that exchange. Another thought on why, would be that the certain amount that is made off whatever, used to be a large amount back then......now it isn't, but since it was a large amount it makes it seem like it still is and makes it seem like theres a big incentive even though there isn't. It's really easy and it's one of the first things in my mind, even before going back to drugs, which were raver and burner scene type of drugs. I don't know, I just thought Id talk about it, cause it comes up all the time and fucks with me and Id like to at least see that others relate to me and that I'm not some weird fucking customer magnet or whatever you wanna call it. Alright, well just let me know your thoughts, and changing my group of friends is not an option, although I am letting the main ones who know most of them in the social circle not to hit me up anymore. So yea let me hear what you think. Thanks.

i have the same problem, its so easy it sells itself. thats wat i think everytime, i can usually just not do it but it seems ingrained in me sometimes. that urge to make a (sometimes very) few bucks so easily. i honestly think its my genetics, without saying too much

 

[badandwicked]

You obviously have an enterprising side to your personality, and get satisfaction from, as you say 'making someone happy'. Maybe you could try and find something else to do in life that fulfills these aspects of your nature.

 

[2manyopiates]

Get a job at a head shop, you'll make relatively similiar people very happy (and plenty others) and you get to work around bomb ass pieces. People at headshops usually haggle too!

 

[eye kant spehll]

Get a job at a head shop, you'll make relatively similiar people very happy (and plenty others) and you get to work around bomb ass pieces. People at headshops usually haggle too!

OMG this one got me crackin up lol......"and the haggle too" omg wow. Yea I donno I do do other things, and It's just there easily without even looking for the custies. Luckily they don't come ring my doorbell and luckily never will lol, but still that shit's tough. Working in a headshop sounds cool lol, but it's a tough one cuz I dont smoke nemore lol. I do modeling actually, obviously that's not an everyday thing, but it makes good money when it goes down. School is another part of my life, so I have a lot going on, but I think I can handle all this, but it's just so frustrating to deal with, but it's nice to see others experiencing the same struggle and being able to relate to you guys. Thanks for all the responses so far, I was expecting to see my thread at the bottom with all the other nonbolded threads lol. Thanks though either way hehe