Dealing with anxiety and Insomnia

[Opanaking]

Hi everyone,

Long story short I need to cut everything out of my life that is causing me anxiety and stress. I was completely fine until I started drinking to much pod/seed tea. It was actually fine for awhile until I started doing it daily. It doesn't make me feel good in the back of my head when I have to have something. Also I quit drinking alcohol awhile back and had some drinks recently. Even just a couple of drinks has made my anxiety go right up. For some reason when I have alcohol in my system the first thing I want to get is benzo's, probably because I used to drink on them and I associate the two with each other. The alcohol really made my anxiety go up even more.

So right now I need to withdrawal from seed tea and I know if I can get a week clean I'll be back on the road I was. I also decided that i'm not going to smoke any weed. It does amplify my anxiety but does help a little with sleep.

How can I get through this without blowing a fuse. I'm really starting to feel like I need some benzos.

I haven't had that feeling since I was dependent on them and I dont like it. I just need to get through this withdrawal. Maybe a few days of taking them will actually help, however if it's possible to do it without them I would like to figure out a way. I've always used them in opiate withdrawal before and haven't done a withdrawal without them. I did used to be dependent on them though so that's why I want to avoid them if I can.

I'm sure my anxiety and Insomnia will go away once the withdrawal is over. I can exercise to make my self tired. I feel like I need to see a Dr. and get a script but I know if I get clean I wont need anything to sleep. I dont want to keep complicating things.

 

[RobotRipping]

for the first few days, benzos can really help. It's so easy to get back into the habit of using them all the time but for 3-4 days for the worst part of the w/d i think it's fine. Last time i went through opiate w/d i didn't have anything for the worst days but really i should have just used benzos for sleep and RLS.

do you drink lots of caffeine? I had to cut it out after having a bunch of panic attacks and i find my energy is much more consistent now and i feel much more calm although i still have rough times.

poppy tea withdrawals suck, mine were worst from day 2-5 probably and after that i felt a bit better each day. My body took a while to return to normal with sleep and eating but it was still much more tolerable than benzo withdrawal.

I would definitely avoid alcohol, use benzos when you really have to and get some loperamide. There are plenty of other things to ease withdrawal but i think benzos + loperamide will mitigate the worst of it. Don't be too worried about the physical withdrawal it'll be over in 10 days max. Also have some sort of plan for after the physical withdrawals, i get the 'pink cloud' problem where i always want to relapse after i get through it, so having someone around who can help you avoid going back to it is very helpful.

 

[Opanaking]

That's the most annoying part of this whole thing. I managed to stop about three times and on the fifth day each time went back. It's just weird I know I need some benzo's to sleep so i'm going to try and go get some. I'm very careful with them and i'm not going to get addicted to them again. I just consider them very helpful for withdrawal and come downs. I gotta say the nice part about seed/pod tea is I had an opiate at my disposal, the high has gotten shorter and shorter. I went from feeling good for 2-3 days straight to only getting high for a couple hours.

I did cut out of the coffee and I drink green tea, which has very little caffeine. Screw alcohol i've been hung over for like two days and felt like I was having heart palpitations last night. If I can just get some sleep I can get through this. I also might try some california poppy, heard it helps with insomnia.