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Bluelighter
When The days seem like
I can no longer Bear the pain
Lonely times not only for me but others
when my heart is no longer
willing to step out of this room
I think of you,
I put on the robe you left and
snuggle up to your Bear.
Who's name is too long for me ever to remember
just most times i call him spoon almond, though i know i am
missing two other parts of his name
it doesn't matter.
I pull up the covers
and cry into his arms
Though he smells like you
he can't take your place
but
he helps me through the day.
Another day of snow,
another day of wondering what your days are filled up with
expecting 4:24 pm bus to arrive like it still does everyday
not to have you on it
always makes my eyes still water up
Still hearing how people miss you
Kelly cuddled up to your bear the other day,
we talked about you, as though you were just down running around with chris. But in truth your no where close,
but only close in our hearts.
John still telling me I should demand you come back
that our life is not the same. I am not sure if he drinks less or more with you here, but he sure misses you at night.
He comes over and gets on the bed, turns on the TV and falls alseep, Telling me He can't help it is he is bored without you.
Darla asked about you today, she worries about your happiness
I tell her your fine, But I think betty misses you more, that lady who can't hear a word you say but boy did she blush and smile eachtime you walked by.
I tell you many times
Your the best cause it is the truth
regardless of where you are
You always have a home here and we miss you.
LOVE YOU!
remembering lying in your bed, constantly waiting to hear either "knock knock knock" or "ring ring" hehehe people never could give us some peace.. or the one night we wanted to go down to the kitchen to cook up some shroom tea and fucking everyones got them lol, walk in there being all secretive and theres Jeramiah sitting there stiring a pot full of mushrooms lol... yeah the memories get me by love.. 
