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Day three, this sucks

that's when the magic happens in the meetings. when you don't necessarily have to focus all your energy into staying clean and can pay attention and take in the message.
 
placid space said:
slightly OT but can you elaborate a bit on that please?

Alien congrats on getting on the path towards getting clean. I hope you keep it up!
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What do you mean OT? When I use H the next day as I'm coming off it my throat closes up and the only way I can get to sleep is propped up because I can't breathe right laying down. Wheezing, coughing and coughing up thick brown/green mucuous....lol even though its only been a little while (3 weeks) since I last used H I'm glad I'm not still playing this game. Now I'm trying to confront oxy addiction and get off those.

hope that is more clear.

And when I use H I have only ever used very small amounts of it.
 
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The alergy/alergic effect is that our mind tells us that we need more. When we drink or use, our bodies do not react the same way as a non addict/alcoholic. That's basically it. We are alergic to the substance of our addiction, just like poison ivy. You rub up against the shit and get all itchy. But for us, we use it and we get fucked instead.
 
And I just found out my wife is taking me out to dinner! I haven't been outside of the house for almost two weeks except to go to meetings. I'm gonna order me some sort of steak and have some cake for desert. Mmm...chocolate cake with extra chocolate.
 
Dinner was fantastic. I'm still full from the chicken and biscuits. Had chocolate cake and regretted it all night as it made me sick.

Just another day of sober living.
 
I'm so glad you are staying sober alien :) Have you started doing the steps again?
 
Mehm said:
I'm so glad you are staying sober alien :) Have you started doing the steps again?
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I have not other than doing a 10th step. I don't have a sponsor yet and not that I'm taking my time, I just want to make sure I get one that can work with me if that makes any sense. I want to spend a little more time at some meetings to get a feel for who's out there before diving into step work.
 
Hi,
Im new to the site but saw your post and was wondering how you are doing??? I myself just helped my boyfriend kick methadone and this was the first time I have done it..It felt like forever but day 5 and he is doing good so far..he can do it so can you..
 
PastPresentFuture said:
Hello all. I have enjoyed this thread. How many days are you in today Alien?

Ps Love Austin
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It's day 13, but really it's just one day at a time. Austin is a great town, good music, good food, unfortunetly lots of booz and lots of drugs too. But I'm also finding lots of good sobriety as well.

AdiktEd said:
Hi,
Im new to the site but saw your post and was wondering how you are doing??? I myself just helped my boyfriend kick methadone and this was the first time I have done it..It felt like forever but day 5 and he is doing good so far..he can do it so can you..
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I'm actually doing really well. I get a nice visit from my PAWS every now and then, but he just hangs out trying to tell me sweet lies that I just ignore. That's great to hear about your boyfriend. Is he getting any outside help? My wife has been a great person helping me through this path to sober living, but for me I need to be around other recovering/recovered addicts and alcoholis to really stay on this path.

I need their experience, strength and hope to help guide me, but that's because I'm either going to be a full time person in a program of fellowship or I'll be a full time drunk/addict. I chose the former as I want a wife, kids and all the blessings that come with being clean and sober.
 
Right now he isn't most of his friends are either in recovery, but not at the point where they are not done using, we turn to church and each other and we are keeping busy. He use to be a pro boxer so he is thinking of returning to that. I just think to much to soon might not be a good thing..He went back to work today so Im keeping my fingers crossed.. 13 days yes something to be proud of it gives me goose bumps just thinking of how good you must feel right now..I feel so much excitement for you and your family..
 
AdiktEd said:
Right now he isn't most of his friends are either in recovery, but not at the point where they are not done using, we turn to church and each other and we are keeping busy. He use to be a pro boxer so he is thinking of returning to that. I just think to much to soon might not be a good thing..He went back to work today so Im keeping my fingers crossed.. 13 days yes something to be proud of it gives me goose bumps just thinking of how good you must feel right now..I feel so much excitement for you and your family..
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I really appreciate that. I will say that the first time I tried to kick opiates I did try to do too much too fast and relapsed pretty bad.

If you're interested, I would recommend checking out the white book from NA.

http://pop.ctana.org/recovery-literature/litenglish.html

There is a lot of great information for you and your boyfriend to read. If you don't mind me asking, but were you using or just your boyfriend? You would be surprised how important this question is in relation to recovery.
 
Alien.. freakn on the tunnels.. when i was Dt the methadone, xanax, and the rest of the kitchen sink, I had made it SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO fkn far and at the very end the addiction/physical withdrawal pushed SO hard, it pushed so hard, no really so hard, that after all the hell i had been through I lost sight of the fact that all of it was temporary, I lost sight of the fact that I was so close to the end, then out of the blue I thought At my experience as being almost completely in the dark but able to see/remember that there was an end to the tunnel.. thats what the "light at the end of the tunnel pictures are for. to remind someone in their darkest hour that this will end, that they are almost there, that THEY have made it almost to the end and no matter how dark it gets there is light just around the corner.. also it seems if an addict traveling through that tunnel is given a picture or honest representation of how close they are when it makes its last monumental push, the time we are beaten to the bone and have our hop e almost extinguished, then some flame of courage, determination, or possibly a light somewhere in the soul catches fire and carries us the rest of the way.. i would say that the overwhelming vast majority of people walking the insane walk out of physical opiat withdraws INCLUDING methad<3 and BUpie<3 who have gotten a little encouragement from the light (blue) at the end of the tunnel have made it, not because of picture of a tunnel, but because they found hope and at that point its the only thing that works as well as the only thing we can offer..

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