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Opanaking

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Hey guys,

I have been taking poppy seed tea for over a year and decided I have had enough.

Last night I was up all night. I have been taking lopermide 10mg's twice per day. It helps with the pooping, but has not gotten rid of the withdrawal.

I'm trying to take only one moment at a time. What sucks though is I have an important week at work starting tomorrow.

I'm dedicated to getting sober. I just think I didn't realize how annoying these withdrawals would be.

Usually I at least had some Bali Kratom to take the edge off of withdrawal. That would probably help me a lot and i'm considering getting some for the work week.

So this withdrawal is really rough. I have detoxed from suboxone after taking it a year and had a similar withdrawal. But I had klonopin and nuerontin back then. Right now I just have a little bit of weed to smoke, DXM, and lopermide.

At night and in the morning my heart feels like it's running away. This withdrawal really sucks.

Any suggestions on how to get through a withdrawal that I was not expecting to be this rough?

I used to only take half a pound of poppy seed tea once or twice a day. But lately was probably taking to much. Upwards of 2 pounds of good seeds a day, I was not even feeling a buzz anymore. I even felt shitty when I had the tea in my system.

What do I do and how do I get through this. I'm taking one day at a time, but i'm not going to lie. I'm a little bit worried about how i'm going to get through the week next week. It's just to hard to focus on anything while going through this. My desire to get sober is very strong though. I probably could have done this by slowly tapering, but I want off now. So that's why i'm considering kratom but would not want to get any seeds again. But when I was up the whole night last night I did consider it.

Please any suggestions on how to feel better would be greatly appreciated. I did consider going to the hospital but I wasn't sure if that would help or just be a waste of my time when i'm already not feeling well.
 
Hey opana.. sorry you are feeling rough.. I am not sure of the duration of the withdrawal off poppy tea so when you are through the tunnel please consider reporting back as to the length of your experience. Just keep at it.. you can do this.:)


The medications I would explore the use of for detox would be:

>Clonidine< DOSED EVER FOUR HOURS..

one of either
>NEURONTIN< >HERE< >HERE<
OR >Lyrica<

>A BENZO BUT JUST AT NIGHT<
>a nsaid<
>melatonin<
tylenol
 
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The withdrawal can go on for awhile. I have been going through this a few times. Usually by the second week day 14 I start feeling better. That's the longest I have made it since I have been trying to get off. This time I am more determined then ever. I refuse to give up. I wish I had some benzodiazapines but I don't. I don't have any medication except lopermide, melatonin, (which I already take every night)ibuprofen, and a little bit of weed.
 
The lopi will keep you in withdraws.. are you able to acquire any of these medications.. usually they are not hard to get from a doctor if you tell them what you are trying to do. You can do this.. if I can do it anyone can. I detoxed off a very large physical dependence to methadone, oxy, lol.. all at the same damn time.. it sucked but I made it through it and after a little bit of time now I feel better all the time than I did any of the time using. keep at it its so worth it. Do you have any idea what you plan to do to facilitate a comfortable and peaceful life with out the drugs?
 
Well I guess I need some type of support group. I might look into trying some meetings.

This was actually a relapse that went on for way to long. I need to make sure I don't get high again once i'm clean. It's just something I can't do anymore. I'll probably still smoke weed once in awhile.

I was only taking the lopermide to soften the fall. Since I pretty much went from taking 2 pounds a day of good seeds down to nothing. There are a lot of different alkaloids in PST that contribute to the withdrawal. But yeah the reason I'm taking some lopermide is it's pretty much the only comfort med I have. I'll probably only take small amounts for a couple more days.

I'm thinking about going to the Dr. in the morning. But so far I have been able to get through this. It sure would be nice to have some meds to help ease the withdrawal though, that would make the process so much easier. Either way I want to stop with or without the help of a Dr.

I do remember what it feels like to be clean. It's a great feeling. I felt amazing before I started getting high again. That's what is motivating me to keep moving forward, even though this withdrawal is more difficult then I thought.

I lay awake at night trying to find a comfortable position to sleep in. Then I just remind my self that I will get better and that everything is fine. I keep telling my self that over and over. This process really does suck but I know once it's over i'll be done for good.
 
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Hey I'm sorry you are feeling rough.. such a damn rotten deal in the end right.. I dont know if you ever listen to audio books but I found they helped me a little with the craving, boredom, and loneliness of kicken.. this is a free sight so some of the readers are a little much, but I have found some good ones as well Books Should Be Free

After the acutes are over then we often get hit with the PAWS and then as you already know the real battle begins. I like this blog about paws > Why We Don’t Get Better Immediately: Post-acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS) <


here are some links that could give you some information and ideas.

Addiction Guide

SMART Recovery (Support Group information and discussion)

Twelve-Step Addiction Recovery Support Groups

Varied Approaches to Addiction Recovery


The beginning of a whole new life.. it get good pretty quick.
Good things about being off drugs/getting sober


You can do this and find and develop a recovery plan that provides you with a peaceful and possibly amazing life in recovery.. just keep fighting<3
 
Just to update it's still a very rough kick. I have been up all night every night. There is a strong tinge in the front of my fore head. I just feel like crap, I accepted the fact that I did some damage to my body. So hopefully i'll heal eventually. It's just hard to deal with such a severe withdrawal. But I guess that's what happens when I took a strong mix of opiates for over a year.

Mods is this topic better suited for TDS?
 
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