Day 4

Hiya everyone

Well today is day 4. Such a beautiful day. Blue sky, the air feels fresh. Ibstill feel tired. Had a coffee. Had my sertaline n my 1.6 mg subutex. I think we're going to go outside today will take lilvibe outbto park n get some vitamine D.

Feelings are setting in for the last 6 months n I know I have to make amends with family n loved ones for the things I did. I am kinda scared of doing that n not sure on how I go about doing it. I'm just going to take things one day at a time. Build my strength up n start writing again. Writing always helped me somehow.

Going to start helping others in the same boat as me. If we can motivate each other n hold each other up when one of us is falling, that be good. I've had some strange dreams lately. I won't be doing drugs again. Once I have got off subs Inwant to abstain from everything n properly recover from what I've done to myself. I will keep documenting my blog with the hope that it will helpmothers.

Oneards n upwards.

Love you, Bluelighters

Evey

 

Did you not just take a bunch of subutex yesterday that you shouldn't have? Maybe you're tired because on top of your stimulant binges you keep messing with your taper?

I.e. people have been telling you for years now on this site to stop doing that - not skipping days / stashing meds / abusing them to try and cover up the fact you're exhausted after binging on stimulants, then post a blog about how serious you are about helping yourself / others? lol.

 

Yes it's called "drug addiction." If it was so easy to overcome there'd be no need for rehabs, counselling, various organisations such as SMART n 12 step programmes. Thanks for your comment.

Evey