Day 2: No Alcohol, No Drugs

I almost caved in. I was at work and a little voice in my head said 'Just one more time'. I ignored it and didn't buy that 6 pack.

It basically comes down to this... how bad do I want to get better? How bad do I want t help others?

I can handle the minor, immediate discomfort. It is much better than the future pain if I keep running from myself through drugs and alcohol.

I'm registering for classes tomorrow (Drug and Alcohol Studies). I'm excited! I can't be a junkie, alcoholic if I'm going to work in that field so time to get my shit together.

I feel sooooooo much better now that I'm back on the meds. The positives outweigh the negatives so I just need to ACCEPT that I need them to function in life.

I just need to stay out of my own way.

 

It's going to be hard to keep that perspective, but it's the one you need to have and you can do it so long as you keep your goals clear in your mind. I wish you luck and good health on your journey!