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Day 1 of off oxycodone

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returntolife

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Hi Everyone, yet another total addict going cold turkey.

I was shooting heroin and methadone for 15 years and go clean 15 years ago.
I cant believe I ended up hooked again but this was a legal prescribed drug after
back surgery and I convinced myself that this is all great and I can just use every now and then.

2 years later the pills aint working, kept raising the dose and always ran out of my prescription.
It ended up with lies, an amazing wife that cried and felt I was not there, no sexual desires, and
on and on and on....the sneaking around for drugs sucked and I love my wife more than anything.

So, I tapered down....I am done, and mentally feel super strong to get off of this crap.

I called my pain dr and said I am going CT and told the secretary that if they could prescribe anything
that would help me that would be great. I am hoping for Valium, but if I get nothing so be it.
This is day one and I am feeling it...but as others have shared the tapering down might have taken
the worst already. Who can taper anyways? So in other words I ran out of oxycodone and tapered
in like 3 days, which may not even be called tapering.

Went and bought all the stuff recommended for doing this.

I do have some tamazapam which I will take at night to get some sleep.
Right now my cramping is bad, my whole body is hurting inside (nervous system?)
restless, shaking, COLD!, chills and, well you know what I mean.

I am hoping the WD are short, rather than the 7 to 10 days I hear about. The Heroin
CT which I did 2 times, and one time Methadone, I would say methadone was by far
the worst ever. Is oxycodone WD less than heroine?

I admit I love drugs, and I admit I cant control this, although I thought I could, now that
I am older and wiser LOL no such luck.

Anyways, my days ahead my be rough so I am just looking for support and a few words of encouragement.
 
Hey returntolife and welcome to BL:)

Sorry to hear your facing another detox. You got this! Whats the opaite your detoxing? if its hydro or oxy you will b e through the tunnel in six or seven days.

medications for acute opiate detox

The medications I would explore the use of for detox would be:
>Clonidine< DOSED EVER FOUR HOURS..

one of either
>NEURONTIN< >HERE< >HERE< >here<
OR >Lyrica<
OR >phenibut<

>A BENZO BUT JUST AT NIGHT<
>a nsaid<
>melatonin<
tylenol
Senokot S is a stool softener and laxative. If you do not want the laxative you can go for strait stool softenerDioctyl sodium sulfosuccinate.

(Opi Withdrawal) what is the best comfort meds for opiate w/d?

Your Personal Opiate Withdrawal Arsenal
 
I don't know how many mg's of oxycodone you were up to before that quick taper, but that will have some effect on the length and intensity of your w/d. I C.T.'d off oxycodone, hydrocodone, alcohol, and a small daily amt of xanax, back in 2013, and it was about 7 days for the physical, about a month for the anxiety and insomnia. You are doing the right thing to get off of them now... God forbid you relapse on H. BTW: I am on BL with a goal of a slow taper off the oxy... so far, so good.
 
Hi, you're not alone...I'm in the same boat. Oxys are the bane of my existence. Even fell victim to the needle.
I managed to go almost a week clean but relapsed 3 days ago. It sucks, it's all I think about.
I never bothered to consider tapering because I know I can't control myself once I have my hands on something.
I consider myself a strong willed individual, but I do admit oxycodone is some powerful stuff that renders me powerless.

We can get through this; YOU can get through this. Just know you're not alone...not now, not ever. Stay strong my friend.
 
You guys are awesome!

day 2....counting hours, and praying that I wont hit a day 4 low......

The only reason I was able to taper in the last days was the extreme fear of wd's.....I hate wd's
The difference for me this time is that I have no desire for oxys....in the end I hated how they
made me feel even at high doses....dont know why...it was like my body rejected them.

So I went from 180 mg, to about 90 a day with less in the day and spiked at night to get high.
finally I spent some 4 days or so at maybe 30 mg at the final 2 days was 12.5 and 5 mg with withdrawals of course.

My hope is that the 4th day struggle that I certainly had on the last 2 CTs with methadone and heroine
is gonna be less this time. I still feel it somewhat easier this time, just because I am some feeling done with
this so my mind doesnt think about oxys all the time....

Drs gave me conidine and dang what a god send. My heart was racing and I was shaking a lot plus
the hot flashes and extremely cold and those things are now tolerable.

I aint feeling great I can tell you that, and right now the worst is I'm hurting so much inside....
like my hole dang nervous system is freaking out.

I may go get something for the diarrhea cuz it is relentless. Been wanting to throw up but managed to keep it down.

Sry for being wordy, I feel like I wanna talk and share right now. Oh and the sadness/depression and wanting to cry
is pretty strong too.

Gonna go for a walk and then take a bath with some epsom salts and see if I can feel a bit better.

Thanks for the support everyone, its appreciated a whole lot!!!!

I want my freaking life back!!!!! Actually let me change that: I am TAKING my life back NOW!!!
 
I hear you loud and clear.....I tried in the past to do the methadone tapering, but I always failed as they had my urine checked every 2 days.....
I did find ways to get around that though LOL
One thing that makes it different for me this time is that I never used the needle, never snorted, I must have crushed it once or twice in 2
years....and for 15 years it was like I would shoot anything that came my way......dont know what changed with that....you know people say
oxys are close to heroine but for me the is no comparison whatsoever......my favorite blend was rohypnol beer and heroine...maybe with a touch of hash..(I hate pot).today, I am done and
my suggestion to you is.....would it be possible for you to taper if a close friend dispersed it for you?

I wish us both the best of life the best in life onward.....thanks for sharing with me!!!!
 
neversickanymore: thanks for the clarity...so, I can expect to feel this for weeks? But perhaps it wont bother me as much the latter
of the 2 weeks because I tapered down? Just remaining hopeful....
 
neversickanymore said:
Intensity yes.. length no.

The level of use ends up having little or no effect on length of withdrawal.
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Exactly!!

I just wonder why Lyrica is so effective.

My mother who is older and had never used anything but a tylenol in her entire life is now taking Lyrica for neuropain.

Is she going to be on withdraws because of this medicine? She uses one per day - in the afternoon.
 
^ it can and does cause physical dependence.

returntolife said:
neversickanymore: thanks for the clarity...so, I can expect to feel this for weeks? But perhaps it wont bother me as much the latter
of the 2 weeks because I tapered down? Just remaining hopeful....
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Your doing great. You will see the light at the end of the tunnel six or seven days after your very last dose of opiates.

Then you may experience some PAWS. Its a great idea to come up with and implement plans to deal with any PAWS and your underlying addiction. Kicking is removing the physical dependence. After this we are still left with the addiction. The phisical withdrawal suck and thats what most people fixate on. The feel rough, but in the end this turns out to be the easy part. To avoid going through that tunnel over and over and over we need to address the addiction and also heal from the psychological wounds it leaves.

Addiction Guide

PAWS LINKS
Why We Don’t Get Better Immediately: Post-acute Withdrawal Syndrome (PAWS)
Post Acute Withdrawal (PAW) Excerpted From “Staying Sober” By: Terence T. Gorski
Post-acute-withdrawal syndrome Wiki

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it is a powerful thing to keep our thoughts positive and here are some threads many of us use to help us do this.
Good things about being off drugs/getting sober
Share Something Positive from Your Day vs. It's All Around You
Today I Am Thankful For... Ver. 4 Infinite Chances in an Amazing World
Daily Personal Affirmations Log Vs IM THE SHIT & NOT a piece a.. not playing me. NOPE
Managing depressive thinking

Here is the mindfulness thread.
Anhedonia MEGA Thread
 
I like the positive attitude. Keep it up. And when you're feeling down we've got your back. I find sometimes just typing out my feelings is so helpful. You're going to have your ups and downs...just don't dwell on the past and keep your mind set. One step at a time my friend. We're going to overcome this and one day look back with pride and empowerment. Every day...every hour...every minute is an accomplishment.
 
Thanks so much 1fastgsxr I appreciate your kind words.

One thing you said is very present for me....lots of old thoughts......last night all dang night I was dreaming about shooting heroine....you kidding me????
And what always sux is that you never get to get high LOL which probably is a good thing in my case :)

I am a general contractor and made room for this cuz I thought I would just lie in bed...instead I am all over the place.
The emotions is pretty intense but I've done decades of inner work around that so I just watch the thoughts drift by
without being too serious around it.

But all my past as a junkie is super present right now and the flow of past images is pretty much constant.

This forum helps a lot, I am actually starting to feel some real joy and excitement about being clean again.
The Shame?.......it's there, but my wife sees that I am doing it and she trusts me.....actually, I trust me too :)
Honestly she has no clue what I am going through.....and yet she is smart as hell and super observant and had
a brother that went through the same things so maybe I am the clueless ha ha ha

No whining right now from me....it tolerable ATM

Hey, question. I am craving something really bad....what kind of foods is good through the WDs?
Yesterday I just wanted to throw up all the time, but today I am hungry as heck. Is that the clonodine?

so thankful,
Michael
 
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Ok, reality hit....just wanna get it out of my system....feel like crap, nothing seems to work.

Had a tolerable day but hit a wall this evening.

Keep wondering if its the clonipine or something I took, but its just heavy WDs.....

Cant wait for the next up....of the ups and downs......

moment to moment I will make it through this.....I hate whining.....and right now I am whining....
Maybe another walk would help.

Blessings and strength to all who is going through this!!!
 
Hey I actually just finally joined because of your post. I have been crusing bluelight for years and finally joined. Also two weeks into no percocet...except one slip up last thursday :(

I just wanna say that exercise really does help, HEATING PAD for the RLS and aches, weed(high amounts/serious edibles), LOPERAMIDE. You said you had the diarrhea, I was hesitatne taking high doses even after reading about it on here....After withdrawing many times and this time i used high doses of lperamide 12-16mg in the morning IT WAS A LIFE SAVER. You get constipated again but I was happy, awake, not worried, in a good mood and I only used it for three days then stopped becuase I wanted to acutally poo.


FOOD !!!! I am so glad you asked that becuase I always do the same thing, I cant eat, then one day I am starving but only for like comfort food. My personal experience on WD I buy and freeze a pizza (I am in NY), chocolate, candy (sour) cake, anything with sugar and I dont have to cook lol

Anyway I hope that helps
 
Day 3 almost done....it's a bitch...still positive sorta but wearing out...mentally preparing for the dreaded day for.....mornings are usually pretty good and then as the day goes by I feel worse
is that normal?
 
We have that in common. I love the mornings I cant wait to wake up, sip some java and get on with my day, but around lunch time it starts getting boring and dull and the day starts feeling longer and then im just waiting until I can lay in bed get 3 hours of sleep and wake up to my coffee. Keep it up though I forgot how nice it is when you get that first night of full sleep, true vivid dreams, no aching, eating, going out and enjoying sunlight….I finally laugh at random things, I find myself laughing all the time. its great I am on day 9 of cold turkey from those little blue devil F@#$ers
 
ha ha yes, I open my eyes and think yummi! coffee now!!! feeling ok this morning, got my coffee in front of me.
I am looking to get back to work asap but for now I just keep it low key.

Second night my dreams where all about drugs, last night I dreamed I was in a black box trapped and it filled with water.
Not necessarily an untrue picture of how I was feeling/feel.

It was such a love/hate relationship with the Oxy......but I must say in the beginning lots of euphoria but at the end
there was no enjoying it......just like heroine I went from being high to just keep the body normal....

Day 4 is in front of me.....I'm ready......
 
Not much action in here...but thats ok I am still here, going strong, soul is tired....still dealing with high blood pressure
but Clonidine helps a lot.......Day 5.......my mind thinks " Man I want beer and benzos ".....

restless and dont know what to do with my self...expected this, nothing new for me......

yesterday I struggled physically a lot but man I just loved the energy of being clear, my humor is back
and I feel such connection with people.....its the Gold of being clean.....Love it!!!
 
I am glad to hear that man, I recently fucked up for a little while but I am done again. I just need to be strong on certain days otherwise I am way to weak. I am glad to see you doing better, I hope now a few weeks later your still doing good, I would like to hear back from you.

Thanks
 
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