Day 1 of off oxycodone

[returntolife]

crsmclaren,

thank you for checking in with me, I appreciate it more than you will ever know.

I am on day 19 and have NOT taken any drugs.

I want to....physically I think I am past the WD but my body is in pain which is where I started this path
in the first place.....so I feel trapped between the pain of my body and the suffering of oxy addiction.

Its just my truth right now.

I wanna say that there is no way in hell I am going back....some say, remember where you came from...
I know if I went back I would loose my wife.....I just couldnt bare that...she is amazing, beautiful and
way more supportive than I deserve LOL

So, my body says drugs drugs drugs my head says drugs drugs drugs and my Spirits says no fucking way!

Enough about me, how are you doing?????

I found the imodine and clonopine to be super helpful are you taking care of yourself????

Now it is me who really wants to hear from you

Let me know if I can support you in any way!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We are probably much more powerful than what we imagine.....

Sending you good thoughts and strength!

 

[crsmclaren]

Hey returntolife,

I have been reading some of your posts in the other sober areas, trully helpfull dude. I am now back onto day 3, after a nasty relapse as you know. I am doing alright, this time I tapered so I only used immodium for two days (none today) and I also used my last xanax today at work to calm down. I usually smoke a lot of weed during withdrawal but since this wd i am broke I just so happen to aslo have to be drug free.

I will say that being completely drug free is amazing, I have energy although some from withdrawal, I have vivid dreams, I can control my emotions, it is really great. I forgot how good it feels being sober.

I have an issue that after I am clean for a while, I do one, then two, then relapse again and I get into the same pit, this time I wont do that.

The best support I like is just knowing I am not in this alone, I have a friend whos quitting with me but his problem was never as bad as mine and he has a family, which I think if you have kids(in your situration your wife) it makes it easier becuase you dont want to hurt them anymore.

All in all I am doing great fuck those pills, but I am glad you asked that trully was awesome.

Thanks returntolife, I hope we see eachothers posts often.