Datura is UNPREDICTABLE and CONFUSING (question)

[Grigore]

I'm going to make some research and find something with which I could replace datura.

1 question,somebody is giving me 50 bucks if I dismember,decapitate and give them the organs of a dead cat that is currently in the rigor mortis state.
If you were me,would you do that?

 

[elucidator]

^^^ Not for anything less than $200. Sounds icky, especially with your state of mind.

I also want to help you realize that there is no reason to feel guilty about slowing down a bit with the drugs you have been using. I used DXM at least once a week for over a year, and it rapidly built various ailments like social anxiety and xenophobia before I could even realize that it was the drug that was making me feel that way. I did not want to slow down, I loved it too much. But I knew that if I didn't I would deteriorate further.

Please have a think about your ultimate reason for wanting such an extended bender and try to realise that extended periods of time in alterred states might permanently alter your brain chemistry.
Slowing down a bit would vastly help you, imo, and try your hardest not to feel guilty for increasing the care you are taking of your body and mind.

 

[buildersoftime]

Well,I'm taking datura for 2 years now and I'm planning to do so for another 8 years and write a book about my life that consists in daily tripping.

I have enough money from renting 3 apartments to sustain this weird life style that I've always dreamed of when I was young.

Twice a week I take datura.
Twice a week I take dxm.
Once a week I take A. muscaria.
And once a week I take salvia divinorum.
Sunday is my ''sober day''

In 2020 I'm going to finish my book and end my 10 year long tripping adventure. xD

If you're still alive or in any mental state to write anything.

I've written 70 pages of mind blowing trip reports,14 poems & 9 abstract drawings(while tripping),35 pages about my psychotic episodes and 25 pages about the time that I've spent in the mental institutions because of datura and dxm overdose.

As a perfectionist,hard worker and drug enthusiast,I must admit that my book isn't finished yet.

Even if you do finish the book before killing yourself it will almost certainly be unreadable/of no value to anyone. The clue's in the name deliriant.

I'm curious what I'll do after...

You'll sit in a diaper, staring at a wall and dribbling.

 

[Transform]

1 question,somebody is giving me 50 bucks if I dismember,decapitate and give them the organs of a dead cat that is currently in the rigor mortis state.
If you were me,would you do that?

I'm afraid I have to step in here Grigore. What you're proposing is an extremely dangerous itinerary of drug use, as well as bizzare animal dissection. What you need to do is discontinue ALL of your drug use and speak to a medical professional before you do yourself (more) harm.

I have locked this thread because I think there is a consensus that your project is very dangerous. If you have any questions about your treatment or other projects then feel free to ask in a new thread