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btmn44

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Hi idk if this is on topic but I wanted to put it out there im 21 years old and I love the dance/rave seen iv been going off and on for years. I started with small doses of mdma/real and progressed to the point that now that its common for me to go to a party and b on 6-12 different drugs in the course of a night. Over the last 6 months iv become more and more depressed and anti social. Over the last 6 months my drug use has resulted in serious relationship problems a visit to the psych ward and a trip to rehab. I love the scene and love the environment but anymore I cant go and do drugs casually its all or nothing when I go out anymore. I know I need a long break from the scene but I get depressed about not being there and the times im missing. Iv seen so many ppl progress into harder drugs in the last couple of years painkillers/crack/heroin and theres an upcoming event for a friend that overdosed on h. I want to go but don't know if Its a good idea for me to go. Just wanted to put it out there somewere, that I need a break trying to get into college and give myself another shot at life. I want to eventually go back to the scene but how much will it change in 1-2-4yrs? what will I miss, will I still know anyone? Will I even want to go still?

I feel like a chemical garbage can just rollin down the street....

anyone ever felt like this? any feedback from anyone whos been in the scene and got out?
 
...but after all this pain, misery and lack of direction, why would you want to return?

What would ensure a different outcome if you did the same thing, but potentially with more formal education behind you?
 
Vaya said:
...but after all this pain, misery and lack of direction, why would you want to return?

What would ensure a different outcome if you did the same thing, but potentially with more formal education behind you?
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that's why I wonder if I would want to go back but at the same time, iv met so many friendly people and had a lot of fun experiences.
 
btmn44 said:
that's why I wonder if I would want to go back but at the same time, iv met so many friendly people and had a lot of fun experiences.
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I think that once you've been away for long enough and collected yourself well enough, reassess your involvement then. I have the feeling that it will be very likely that you won't have much of a desire - apart, perhaps, from the music itself ;) (I'm a DJ and love this music!!)
 
take a break. i feel like it would be incredibly hard to stay sober if you go to raves and shows all the time. when junkies kick, they dont keep going to the hood and hanging around other junkies all day. you gotta change the lifestyle if you want to stay sober.

good luck
 
thank you, and I don't dj but I promote and redrum your analogy makes a lot of sense lol
 
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