Damnit. Crystal did it again. I was so stupid...

[missmegandelaney]

I really didn't want to get involved /bad/ with meth again. I had it all planned, I wasn't gonna let it be as bad as last time. But it is. Only i'm not using with friends, i'm just using for me. I don't tell anyone...I spend all my paycheck on meth.

It's happened.

 

[badfish45]

It's okay that you relapsed missmegandelaney. It's a lesson that you need to learn because you need to understand that quitting will be very difficult, and methamphetamine addiction can be very deceptive to users trying to quit. This is one of the ways it keeps you using, and of course once you're using again it's not very likely to chip and use occasionally, as the addiction usually comes back, and is even harder to get off of your back. You just need to get back up, because you CAN beat this when you put your mind to it. Remember, addiction is a never ending battle and you need to keep yourself alert, because it can come back at anytime and get you by surprise.

Why did you decide to use again? Were you upset, bored, stuggling, etc?

 

[theartofwar]

Addiction fucking sucks, plain and simple. I've recently slipped and I'm fighting to even be honest that I've chipped, to anyone. Props that you are able to be so blunt about it, admitting that you are in active addiction after having ANY clean time is honestly the most difficult thing I think to do when it comes to anyone who cares about you and knows your fight.

What changed in your life to have you pick up again. I'm selfishly curious since I don't even know why I did.

 

[g0to]

You, it was you, meth doesn't have any type of agency to do anything other than to exist.

 

[i against i]

. Remember, addiction is a never ending battle and you need to keep yourself alert, because it can come back at anytime and get you by surprise.

huh? once you quit thats the battle over. "it" doesn't come back "you" decide to use again.

 

[theartofwar]

^ are you kidding me with that ? What personal experience do you have with addiction I against I ?

 

[dogsoldier]

Hey mate im in the same boat with meth.. Been tryna quit for about a year.. Relapsed twice so far.. As long as you learn something from your relapse and keep trying. You only fail when you dont get back up

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Stay strong.

Remember that you are in control of your life, and at any time, you can distance yourself from the drug if you so desire.

We are all infinitely more powerful than we presume ourselves to be.

 

[Cotillion]

I noticed you had an abundance of posts all at the top haha!

 

[tripnotyzm]

Ahh i know the feeling, missmegandelaney.
It has such a powerful force. But please, try and stop using crystal meth by yourself..
The habit is so much harder to break when you are taking it alone.
Take care

 

[i against i]

^ are you kidding me with that ? What personal experience do you have with addiction I against I ?

heroin addict. what i meant is, you make a conscious decision to use, feelings (cravings to use, missing it etc) are not under your control, but the action is.