I started taking 1 10mg valium 3x daily about 3 years ago while still on suboxone and it made me feel great and it also made me get a better buzz and great feeling from it too, however I sometimes would take 3, then 5 at a time to really get feeling good. Then I slowly developed a tolerance to it and the suboxone wasn't working hardly at all anymore except just keeping wd's at bay so 2 years ago I started on methadone and my psych doctor who prescribed them to me asked me if I thought I needed to still take the valium since the methadone was working so good. I knew it would be a disaster if I quit so I said no I think I still need them etc and kept getting them.
Then when I was feeling so good on methadone I did something dumb one day, I picked up my 120 pills that were supposed to last a month and didn't tell my mom I got them again and hid them and went on a binge and started taking 5 at a time a few times a day and ran out in a week or a week and a half. I didn't notice anything until about 2 weeks later, I suddenly started feeling so depressed and felt like the methadone was doing nothing, so I saw my clinic doctor and told him what happened, he said that I was going through valium wd's and not anything to do with the methadone.
He gave me a stern lecture on not doing that ever again and asked my permission to call my Mom and urge her to keep my valium hidden and give them out to me every day and was nice enough to give me a script to last a week before my next 120 were due so I would not suffer so bad.
Now I'm on 20mg valium twice daily since I told my psych doc that it doesn't seem to be working anymore so he upped it 10 mgs and I still feel like I'm wasting pills. Then I read this great informative thread and now I wonder if I'm so loaded with overlapping half lives of valium that I should start stashing up the two at a time my Mom gives to me twice a day and cold turkey off valium for a week or until I start getting too uncomfortable. What do you all think of this plan? will this make me feel much better? how long do you think it would be, before I get wd's setting in? I'm assuming a long time since I'm so loaded up with half lives. Let me know what you all think, along with any advice on how to do this etc so I feel better. Thanks, sorry for my long story but I figured if I told everything, it would give a true insight on what's been going on the past 3 years since I went from feeling great to now feeling just blah all the time and wanting to sleep alot.