the_ketaman
Bluelighter
So I always wondered why I liked older men and I strongly denied it having anything to do with a daddy/son thing my whole life.
Then I met my current partner who I can tell anything and we have a saying. Im his boy in the house, his man in the street. Its absolutely nothing pedophilic(im 35 hes 59) but we have developed a dynamic that is not creepy or fucked up, but quite nurturing for me and confidence building and is teaching him how to be dominant and to be more assertive. We both have severe ptsd. He was treated horrifically as a child and developed a lack of being able to stand up for himself, he rarely used to object to anything he didnt like due to the fear of confrontation and possibly causing someone to get angry or upset. Which was heartbreaking because he put up with so much crap just to avoid a likely non-existant argument.
I on the other hand have been known to be aggressive, a lot of people used to be terrified of me and I never understood why and I hated it but I know know that I had a self-protection mechanism that manifested as looking like a psycho and often did get into fights and in the right circumstances would have easily killed someone(hurt my dog, hurt my partner etc) I got assaulted badly and almost stabbed(luckily an aqaintance stood in front of me and in between the psychotic meth head who was in the act of actually being about to stab me in the chest) told me to run and possibly saved my life. After that day instead of being one to fear, I becamse scared of everything and everyone. And that was my secondary case of PTSD(I wont go into the first).
But anyway, My partner and I have been getting comfortable with our dad/son kink(I despise the term 'daddy') We are both benefitting from it, he gives me praise, allows himself to be in charge(Im usually the one who wears the pants as they say(another term i despise) But aside from all that we both think it is incredibly hot. For example he will say things like thats by boy hes got a big cock like his old man. But it goes a bit further into things I wouldnt consider appropriate with a real father and son. Things like saying 'Thats my boy, you take my cock like a champ' or sexual things that would be totally inappropriate with real family and I have no desire to enact with my real father(who is no longer living).
My question is really just.... What do you think of all this? Are we fucked in the head?
We are well aware it is roleplay, its not every time we have sex and its never like pedo type fucked up shit. We are fully aware its sort of a game. My thing is its actually been really good for both of us in many ways. I get the love I never got from my father, and he is no longer a total pushover that sacrifices his happiness and comfort for someone elses. He feels good knowing hes giving me what I needed but never got and hes becoming much more of a man and less of a pussy to put it bluntly. Hes not a pussy btw, hes just so scared of so many things too that he avoids important things and then those things grow into big problems. His father is an absolutely foul human being and he has always worried that he would turn out like him and he is so far from that disgusting human I think it reassures him that hes nothing like him and hes quite the opposite. I never call him 'daddy'(fucking yuck!) but we do get a bit taboo. Like, he might say do you want to suck your dads cock tonight, which I think is hot as fuck. But only coz I dont see him as anything close to what my actual father was like and I like older men and always have.
We are not hurting anyone, noone else knows about this and we both feel good about it.
Is there anything wrong with this? Is it really that unusual and where do the boundaries lie? For me thats age related, if he treated me as a minor id leave him but I know thats not his motive and im the one who started this, he just turned out to be better at it than me lol. For reference im 35 and hes 59, and im by far the more mature one so this gives him a chance to be the 'boss', dominant and hold a bit of power that im always willing to give but hes reluctant to take. I honestly think its actually quite healing for us both.
What do you think?
Then I met my current partner who I can tell anything and we have a saying. Im his boy in the house, his man in the street. Its absolutely nothing pedophilic(im 35 hes 59) but we have developed a dynamic that is not creepy or fucked up, but quite nurturing for me and confidence building and is teaching him how to be dominant and to be more assertive. We both have severe ptsd. He was treated horrifically as a child and developed a lack of being able to stand up for himself, he rarely used to object to anything he didnt like due to the fear of confrontation and possibly causing someone to get angry or upset. Which was heartbreaking because he put up with so much crap just to avoid a likely non-existant argument.
I on the other hand have been known to be aggressive, a lot of people used to be terrified of me and I never understood why and I hated it but I know know that I had a self-protection mechanism that manifested as looking like a psycho and often did get into fights and in the right circumstances would have easily killed someone(hurt my dog, hurt my partner etc) I got assaulted badly and almost stabbed(luckily an aqaintance stood in front of me and in between the psychotic meth head who was in the act of actually being about to stab me in the chest) told me to run and possibly saved my life. After that day instead of being one to fear, I becamse scared of everything and everyone. And that was my secondary case of PTSD(I wont go into the first).
But anyway, My partner and I have been getting comfortable with our dad/son kink(I despise the term 'daddy') We are both benefitting from it, he gives me praise, allows himself to be in charge(Im usually the one who wears the pants as they say(another term i despise) But aside from all that we both think it is incredibly hot. For example he will say things like thats by boy hes got a big cock like his old man. But it goes a bit further into things I wouldnt consider appropriate with a real father and son. Things like saying 'Thats my boy, you take my cock like a champ' or sexual things that would be totally inappropriate with real family and I have no desire to enact with my real father(who is no longer living).
My question is really just.... What do you think of all this? Are we fucked in the head?
We are well aware it is roleplay, its not every time we have sex and its never like pedo type fucked up shit. We are fully aware its sort of a game. My thing is its actually been really good for both of us in many ways. I get the love I never got from my father, and he is no longer a total pushover that sacrifices his happiness and comfort for someone elses. He feels good knowing hes giving me what I needed but never got and hes becoming much more of a man and less of a pussy to put it bluntly. Hes not a pussy btw, hes just so scared of so many things too that he avoids important things and then those things grow into big problems. His father is an absolutely foul human being and he has always worried that he would turn out like him and he is so far from that disgusting human I think it reassures him that hes nothing like him and hes quite the opposite. I never call him 'daddy'(fucking yuck!) but we do get a bit taboo. Like, he might say do you want to suck your dads cock tonight, which I think is hot as fuck. But only coz I dont see him as anything close to what my actual father was like and I like older men and always have.
We are not hurting anyone, noone else knows about this and we both feel good about it.
Is there anything wrong with this? Is it really that unusual and where do the boundaries lie? For me thats age related, if he treated me as a minor id leave him but I know thats not his motive and im the one who started this, he just turned out to be better at it than me lol. For reference im 35 and hes 59, and im by far the more mature one so this gives him a chance to be the 'boss', dominant and hold a bit of power that im always willing to give but hes reluctant to take. I honestly think its actually quite healing for us both.
What do you think?
