i dont want you to fucking order me a pizza or grab me a soda from downstairs. i dont care if its alright if i can have a friend over today. i just wanted you to be fucking nice once in my whole goddamn childhood. i wanted you to stop fucking yelling at me all those times i was cutting and having panic attacks. i wanted you to just maybe give a fuck about how much you yelled at me for literally nothing. why the fuck is it my problem if your jobs frustrating, i love listening to people tell their problems, but from as early as i can remember up until the day i moved out, i remember being petrified of you coming home from your business trips. all you would do was yell, judge, drink, and stare hatefully. i couldnt fucking take it as a little kid and im sure as hell not gonna fucking take that as an adult. this is why i never come home and visit you fuck and this is why i stay silent and vacant as much as possible around you.
---nobody
---nobody