Jean-Paul
Bluelighter
whether or not it's worth it. hmm. well, no, i'd say it's not. i also think it's better for me than alcohol, but a lot of things that have happened could contradict that. basically, scary things have happened even though i'm now a recreational user. that is to say i do not have a habit, and have never felt pulled into one. however, the effect on me is quite more positive socially, mentally, etc than alcohol. but i first used knowing it would not be a 'one time'. i did it because i gave in to something. i gave in. i gave in because i don't know if i could say 'no' if it was just there in front of me again. i think that definitely if i grow as a person and build a stronger life than that might change. as of now, even though it isn't a focus of my life, it is still a part of it. it's dangerous, and i feel that anything but shooting is ultimately a waste. that means taking a serious responsibility to be as safe as i can. and with heroin, nothing is ever actually a guarantee.