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[yoUr bLiSS]

this is everything i just destroyed
everything i just lost in some selfish attempt to find myself
these are his words to me:
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2/20/04
what would you do if you and I had a child that lived today?
how would we be when facing adversity holding each other to breathe?
why are things happening for reasons unclear?
if i said 'I love you' would you feel the same as the breath from my chest?

If time pulled me through space-- the light would become only which that it could catch, not me.
Would I think of you as I warped the edges of galaxies hurdling the universe completely rusticated?
I say, the whole way, I'd miss you.. & further and further I'd go wishing I had just one more moment to be near you.
Now-- I am nearly touching your angelic being on a planet that resembles nothing compared to the vastness of heavens void. And I still feel the hollow of space inside myself.
Tonight is another that no one will have except by parallel. You are one among some that cannot be paralleled.

Pinky swear --- kiss... Love you

I want you to know that you're extraordinary beyond traditional definition.
I want you to know that you're still a kid and you're still good at everything you do.
I want you to know that I will never think of you in disdain.
I want you to know that I will always be there for you.
I want you to know that I am forever in debt for your understanding and kindness.
I want you to be eternally happy
I want you to be unconditionally accepted.
I want you to transcend and pass straight through to the unknown good.
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[neverwas]

wow...you write with such passion and heartache...which is good and bad i hope everything is ok for you. your words are full of love, longing and concern. each post of yours i have read since finding BL has been different and in its own way. unique to the one before.

your a talented girl and shouldnt sell yourself short

everyone deserves to be happy. even you!

 

[yoUr bLiSS]

thank you for your comments, BUT as were a bit piece in my last post, most of this post is not my writing. i've been at a standstill with words, so i've been using others. i try to make that evident, but i guess i'm not too clear...

anyhow, these words are from my boyfriend(ex?) due to lack of response/attention from him i basically had to break up via e-mail last night. i then proceeded to read and cry over all of his past e-mails. this was my favorite.

 

[neverwas]

your words are full of love, longing and concern. each post of yours i have read since finding BL has been different and in its own way. unique to the one before.

your a talented girl and shouldnt sell yourself short

everyone deserves to be happy. even you!

i still stand by what was previouslly posted they may not be your own words *so to speak* but sharing things that are personal in some form is a good way of expression.

it sucks that you had to break up via email its never easy to do shit like that. especailly if its someone you've shared lots of your time with and love.

i find that i write more when i am not thinking. if i have thoughts turning away in my head i cant write... so once my head is clear i can. writting is a good form of expression.

*hugs*

 

[cherub]

amazingly and heartfelt to say the least. Pain is werid and our own inner being werider at times. Growth is out there and despite it all you will make it through.

thanks for sharing.