Crossed the wrong path

[Paris1559]

I've always had my bout with cocaine use for many years off and on. Never been in rehab have always kicked it myself. Recently I've been using almost daily for a few months $40 bag of coke. Taking a couple days off here and to see if I could, then I crossed paths with meth. For some reason it doesn't work the same on me. I snorted it for close to a week about .3-.4 a day it gave me more of an opiate type high. Then the last couple days I ate it which was a different high more euphoric then speedy. The first couple lines are speedy. Is it because I've been using so much coke?.... After a weeks use of meth would I be addicted. I stayed hydrated and did eat some and was in bed by 10 every night. I didn't do any today. I'm just tired and rested. I do want more but will have to try to get this in check and look at the risk. I could see doing it a few days at a time every few weeks as a dietary supplement. Should I just bump occasionally to wean off? There is some downstairs but I haven't used it. If I could just ingest it occasionally that would be good. All the horror stories scare me but I've always moderated myself with coke at some point. What are your thoughts.. Am I fucked... Should I get my coke to counter any cravings I might have.

 

[herbavore]

I think that you should accept that things are right on the edge of being out of control. Take a long break. Detox your body and mind and ask yourself what you need that coke and meth are giving you? Adventure or a cure for boredom? A place to hide from emotions? Energy for work? Whatever it is try replacing them with non-drug alternatives for a good long while. See how you feel. Creating healthy habits that address your needs will do you good whether you decide to keep using or not but you have to take a break to get them established.

 

[Paris1559]

It's all of the above....

how ow long will it take to detox from the meth use. One demon at a time.

 

[THECATINTHEHAT]

It's not a problem until it becomes a problem....

 

[T. Calderone]

Once you start using any substance daily, it's going to be difficult to only use occasionally. After using meth for a week, I don't think you would have much physical withdrawal if any. It's more that you're getting emotionally attached like you did with cocaine. You're going to have cravings and it's best to find non-drug ways to deal with them.