dopamimetic
Bluelighter
Add in the anxiety and some healthy anger about injustice that would make me not thinking a second about stealing from big companies or overly rich people as long as it had no penalty but otherwise it's the same here. I gave away much too much, much too easy but wouldn't mind that as long as I had enough for myself. What I regret is not having made more out of it so I could make more little changes because that's what would make me happy besides drugs - to change things for the better and to make others happy. Some call this weak and would love to know how it feels to be that way, I never understood how you can be at a position where you have real power and not use it for anything besides to get more power, or money which is the same (I don't speak about somebody like your local politician, they need to play the game or they'll be out before tomorrow. Agreed that this might apply to more people than is obvious.)
Problem is that it turns against you when others just move on and give nothing back when you need it. I've seen more 'nice' people building walls around themselves because of bad experiences and some kind of bitterness than those who remain happy but maybe I'm biased.
Shouldn't forget that I my perspective to society is mostly from the outside and things can be very different dependent on the individual position. Given just enough detailed information I can comprehend much of human behavior, it follows its own kind of logic but much of it feels wrong and not worth the emotional price to pay for.
Problem is that it turns against you when others just move on and give nothing back when you need it. I've seen more 'nice' people building walls around themselves because of bad experiences and some kind of bitterness than those who remain happy but maybe I'm biased.
Shouldn't forget that I my perspective to society is mostly from the outside and things can be very different dependent on the individual position. Given just enough detailed information I can comprehend much of human behavior, it follows its own kind of logic but much of it feels wrong and not worth the emotional price to pay for.
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