I have thought about going to get a bag once every three or four hours today. At my lowest point I was talking over going out loud to myself. "I just want to get some and put it in my veins, into my body." I said aloud while shaking my head.
I was trying to rationalize it within myself. Hoping to come to a selfish conclusion.
Anyways, best thing is, I dealt with it. I kept saying redirect to myself outloud, then I would imagine lists of reasons to and not to do opiates.
Anyways, as the clock struck midnight my legs are very sore on my 5 day, the sorest they have been. However my stool has solidified, and my appetite has come back.
Tomorrow is friday and I'm looking forward to any thing that will take my mind off of my personal drug problems
I was trying to rationalize it within myself. Hoping to come to a selfish conclusion.
Anyways, best thing is, I dealt with it. I kept saying redirect to myself outloud, then I would imagine lists of reasons to and not to do opiates.
Anyways, as the clock struck midnight my legs are very sore on my 5 day, the sorest they have been. However my stool has solidified, and my appetite has come back.
Tomorrow is friday and I'm looking forward to any thing that will take my mind off of my personal drug problems