craving 2 be unaware.

[milkncereal2]

(craving to be unaware)
I’ve got;
Music blaring from my stereo
Creating a barrier
From the outside pain.
handful of pills
exonerating my migraine
Body getting chills .
Feeling so good.
Even tho it’s all falsehood
As I will be falling
From fake euphoric into nothing
Wishing it would last evermore.

I’m feeling the music
Inhaling more chronic
Taking in lucid sensations
Undertaking different vibrations
Experiencing facade visions
Undergoing pious hallucinations,
Random mirages
Dreamin’ wishes
feeling the sixth sense
smelling sweet scented strawberry incense

the excasty feeling crashes down
ive leveled off my highest stage
sober state is coming around
bad feelings start to engage
Nauseous, anxious
headache straight up tenacious
Mind-set of despair.
Craving to be unaware
Of how much I hate I.

All I visualize is the ending,
pretending
I don’t dream those thoughts
shots
Right through the head
Ending up in a pool of blood, dead.
I see no hope,
Just a tightrope
Impossible to balance
No chance to get to the distance
Needed to succeed.

Back to the Grooving pulsation
jam session,
Fading into oblivion.
Closing my eyes to my troubles,
Opening them to the angels.
Vowing to provide a try
Making myself into the guy
I adore and idolize
Not someone I have to disguise
And become altered
Just to appear well mannered.


good? shitty as fuck?

 

[yellodolphin]

i liked it, had some nice imagery.

 

[cherub]

imagery is great and yet a side of pain so deep,, seems are to describe