lozgod
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Jan 29, 2010
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Well, got clean to the point WD was over, had a pain management appt coming so I needed oxy in my system in case I got popped for a urine. Started using about 3 days before the test, been using since (about a 2 weeks total), went through about 200 30mg roxis in that time and a few bundles of dope. I am down to my last 2 roxis. Saving them for tomorrow. Broke till Tuesday some time tomorrow the sickness will start because with the doses I been taking 60mgs will be like throwing a rock at a tank. Might help me get out of bed but sometime during the day they will wear off and by sometime in the evening I will be regretting using again.
Could of been out clean. Could of used just to have the dirty urine for PM doctor but went wild with it and have to pay the price. Got plenty of valium to lighten the load but knowing it is coming is almost as bad as going through it.
And the world continues turning, another year is coming, and the hole keeps getting dug deeper. Oh well. Nothing I can do now. Gonna be broke till Tuesday. By then I will be 3 days in. Have an appointment Wednesday I can't be sick for. Sitting through an unemployment seminar for 8 hours. Being sick will be torture so I will use.
Could of been out clean. Could of used just to have the dirty urine for PM doctor but went wild with it and have to pay the price. Got plenty of valium to lighten the load but knowing it is coming is almost as bad as going through it.
And the world continues turning, another year is coming, and the hole keeps getting dug deeper. Oh well. Nothing I can do now. Gonna be broke till Tuesday. By then I will be 3 days in. Have an appointment Wednesday I can't be sick for. Sitting through an unemployment seminar for 8 hours. Being sick will be torture so I will use.