Counting down to getting sick

lozgod

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Well, got clean to the point WD was over, had a pain management appt coming so I needed oxy in my system in case I got popped for a urine. Started using about 3 days before the test, been using since (about a 2 weeks total), went through about 200 30mg roxis in that time and a few bundles of dope. I am down to my last 2 roxis. Saving them for tomorrow. Broke till Tuesday some time tomorrow the sickness will start because with the doses I been taking 60mgs will be like throwing a rock at a tank. Might help me get out of bed but sometime during the day they will wear off and by sometime in the evening I will be regretting using again.

Could of been out clean. Could of used just to have the dirty urine for PM doctor but went wild with it and have to pay the price. Got plenty of valium to lighten the load but knowing it is coming is almost as bad as going through it.

And the world continues turning, another year is coming, and the hole keeps getting dug deeper. Oh well. Nothing I can do now. Gonna be broke till Tuesday. By then I will be 3 days in. Have an appointment Wednesday I can't be sick for. Sitting through an unemployment seminar for 8 hours. Being sick will be torture so I will use.
 
are you asking for help or just telling your story? i don't understand why you would NEED to piss dirty except maybe so you don't lose your script?

really, it sounds to me like you know what you need to do but your just going to ignore it and continue down your darkening path. you realize the reason you are going to get sick is all the pills you are taking? you still have the chance to turn your life into something other than a giant regret. you say "could have been out clean", but then say "oh well, nothing i can do now". i think your going to have to choose between pills and life.
 
Just saying it. It's the dark side.

You have to have oxycodone in your urine to prove you are taking your script. If you pee clean they assume you are selling it or abusing it.
 
Why didn't you just not take any Oxy and tell your Dr. you were done with it? You said you got over the WD so you did all the hard work. Maybe next time kick the Oxy and just tell your Dr. you're through with it. You already know you have the strength to beat the WDs.

Good luck
 
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