Counselor

[Jabberwocky]

I cant tell what’s real anymore
Illusions assault my realities
Breaking them apart
Forming new truths
I blame people, places, things
Anything but myself
I feel like a pin-up
2-D
Fake
An image of an image
No depth
I open a trunk and pick out a mask
Putting on my protection from hurt
From reality
Which mask will you have me wear
To feel connected
Understood
"He feels my pain. It must be valid"
These emotions are to hard to let go
Taking them all in
No release
No outlet
A festering schizophrenia
Leaving me drained
Susceptible
To New truths
New realities
New Never Never Land fantasies
Enveloping my psyche in comfort
To help me sleep at night
Lying telling me that its going to be all right
Who Councils the councilors, I think
as I drift off to sleep
-phil-

 

[Dagny]

And we fall down, down, down the rabbit hole, reality getting ever-so-much far away. I wonder if madness really is the other side, if that's where we go if we don't try to stop ourselves from spiraling anymore. If it would really be so much worse after all.
The things I know are few. I know that when I see you I feel better about the world. I know that when I look in your eyes I don't see two-dimensions, I see the whole world there. I know that it's hard for you to slow your mind down, and that sometimes you love this and sometimes you hate it. I know that I have done at least a few things right in this world to deserve your love. And I know that you see beauty in things that most people will never be capable of seeing.
That's the reality I know. Even when the rest of it all looks like a Salvador Dali painting, knowing you can keep me grounded. I love you, Phil. Even when you don't know how to love yourself (because we all know that hurt), I will be always be there to love you until you remember how.

 

[*TripleX*]

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[Average Whiteboy]

It's a shame that more people don't read Phil's post in Words, because they're all beautiful. And I think a lot of us can relate to many of the things he has to say.

 

[poezante]

Well, no one counsels the counselors, its a sad, sad truth. Although, you have to remember to not lose faith for tomorrow is another day your problem/pain doesn't seem so gut wrenching. This is where you see the strongest side in you emerge.
I believe, you have a strong and sweet soul, so dont give up or give in. I believe tomorrow will be a better day for you. So hang in there.
[ 08 November 2002: Message edited by: poezante ]