EverythingsEventual
Ex-Bluelighter
Sometimes I think I crucify myself for what has been and passed
Constantly criticising myself for not being beautiful enough
Letting everyone believe that I am not smart enough to believe
That inside I may harbour true talent and beauty
This corrodes my soul
Constant screams over coffee about lovers who have passed me by
That I have lost due to the lack of belief I have in myself
Standing on street corners screaming and arguing about the insignificant
Blaming myself for punches that were pulled
This corrodes my soul
The more I try to believe in myself the harder it becomes to smile
Because it’s easier for me to pretend that I am worthless
That I have nothing to bring to anyone who may deign to care for me
Laughing at myself for feeling positive about my life
This corrodes my soul
Everyone who ever said that they saw the burning light in my heart
Just left me saying that they couldn’t be what I needed them to be
Accused me of demanding too much from them
Left me to question my motives and desires
This corrodes my soul
I don’t want a lover to fall at my feet and worship the goddess inside
Just looking for someone to accept my faults and support me
As I would wish to support them through difficult moments
Someone to hear the music and the poetry inside me
This thought…
It gives hope to my soul.
Constantly criticising myself for not being beautiful enough
Letting everyone believe that I am not smart enough to believe
That inside I may harbour true talent and beauty
This corrodes my soul
Constant screams over coffee about lovers who have passed me by
That I have lost due to the lack of belief I have in myself
Standing on street corners screaming and arguing about the insignificant
Blaming myself for punches that were pulled
This corrodes my soul
The more I try to believe in myself the harder it becomes to smile
Because it’s easier for me to pretend that I am worthless
That I have nothing to bring to anyone who may deign to care for me
Laughing at myself for feeling positive about my life
This corrodes my soul
Everyone who ever said that they saw the burning light in my heart
Just left me saying that they couldn’t be what I needed them to be
Accused me of demanding too much from them
Left me to question my motives and desires
This corrodes my soul
I don’t want a lover to fall at my feet and worship the goddess inside
Just looking for someone to accept my faults and support me
As I would wish to support them through difficult moments
Someone to hear the music and the poetry inside me
This thought…
It gives hope to my soul.
