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constant repeat.

iLoveYouWithaKnife

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I walk down the stairs and step through the doorway, ...close the door behind me.
...won't even bother turning on the light.
Take my clothes off, start the water, take a quick glance in the mirror.
...1/2 crooked smile only works sometimes.
I sit down in the tub, pull my knees to my chest, let the water hit my head.
...can't tell if these water drops are pouring out of my eyes, or out of the showerhead.
Look up at the ceiling, run my hands through my hair, look down at the drain and stand up.
Don't need shampoo today, i washed my hair yesterday... a few more seconds to stare down, at the drain. Get the razor, get the soap ...clean my act up a little bit.
Shut off the water, pat myself dry, put on some new jammies. Where's my flip-flops? Did I leave them upstairs again? Oh well. Take another glance in the mirror, still see the same thing.
...only there's no 1/2 smile.
Walk down the hall, and back up the stairs.
Blare my stereo, find my ashtray and beer.
Curl up on my floor, stare at the carpet some more. This damn track is skipping again.
Find a new song, this time I'll sing along. I'll get up, find some clothes to wear, grab my make-up bag. This dude is sing the same tune as me. Sappy emo dork.
Drink more beer. 2 more hours and I'm completely surrounded by it, but on the opposite and for lousy tips.
Eyeliner, sparkles, grab the mascara, fix my hair. Maybe i'll wear cute little clips in it today. Nah, little braids will do. Let's sing a new song for once... nah, put this one on repeat, it really suits me today. turn it up a little.
Finish my beer, stack up the cans. grab my scarf, jacket, bag.... shit can't find my keys again. 3 minutes til work. Fuck it, they are all drunk there anyway, that makes all of us. Eh, they won't notice as long as their mugs aren't empty.
Get off work, stare at a screen. It's my turn to be on the opposite side. Nah, I'll grab two 6's, stagger home-
walk back up the stairs, at some point or another I'll fall asleep.
Wake up early, start the day slowly, grab a beer.
I will walk down the stairs and step through that doorway, ...close the door behind me.
...won't even bother turning on the light.
Maybe i'll use that new citrus shampoo today.
-repeat-
 
i get pulled into life stories like this... perhaps that's why so much of what i write is my life story too. more than i can find myself gripped by rhyming words or catchy phrases, i'm drawn to listening to people describe their day -- you know, all the little things, that often go unnoticed. you and i share this writing technique-- i've noticed it in other things you write too. so you've just become one of my new favorites :)
sometimes, i like to sit back and "relate" to life's little details... even though on the regular, i'm more likely to say i "relate" to the way someone's heart has been broken, or how their day is horrible, or they have lost hope... so thanks, for giving me something GOOD to relate to today.
 
Hey... thanks for the response. I notice you, among only a few others, are the only ones the actually respond to the shit I write.
Anyway, I find that when I write stuff, I go back and read it i see that I mean more thing than one, that ends up fitting together. I entitled my piece constant repeat, referring to how everyday just seems the same, and then I realized that i had written about blaring the stereo, changing the music, then forgetting about it, and just putting the same song on repeat....
I don't know if you get what I'm saying. Perhaps, it's just too wierd how stuff fits so well together but makes no fucking sense what so ever.
Anyway, I added you to my im list, because after reading quite a few posts, I realized who you were. :) I have never met you, but we are linked to the same people. I go out with Ryan now. Ironically enough, my name is the same as one of his last's. ;)
Thanks for your comments.
 
^^^ ryan lowry? or someone else? i know a lot of ryans!
(if you're talking about lowry, tell him i have been trying to get in touch with him for awhile now! i dont have his number at his mom's... and i had something very important to ask him!!)
:)
 
yes i think you are.... that was only posted a few seconds behind. aol? you got it right?
oh by the way, i just realized that i do know you. well, not really know you... but we went to school together :)
 
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