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asmallscaredbird
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I pray that this place is safe--
I weigh about 260 pounds, give or take, and took 360 mg of pure DXM robitussin because I am a fool. That was the only ingredient. Then, THEN I researched. Mid-trip. And found that my antidepressant is, in fact, an MAOI. Bupropion HCL SR 100 MG. I took one at about two o'clock yesterday evening, none today.
Then I start reading about seratonin syndrome.
I should give background here, and you're all going to call me stupid, and you are RIGHT RIGHT DING DING WINNER WINNER, but here we go.
I have bipolar type two and OCD. I live in Texas. I am currently on disability and have attempted suicide three times. Today? This was not an attempt. I felt great, and stupid.
But I don't want to die.
My concerns are twofold... Threefold... My concerns are many. Here we go.
One: If I willingly went to a hospital with the symptoms of seratonin syndrome, being 24, and told -them- exactly what I've taken and how I've taken it, they would legally not be allowed to tell my mother, correct? I could tell her it was just from a med change they did at the clinic I go to? A lie that would fall apart, but give me time to think, at least.
Two: Would I be arrested? The MAOI I took yesterday was my own. I have the bottle, the prescription, I get it through a medicaid funded clinic. The Robitussin was purchased with my own money, for myself. I drank it. Is this illegal? Would the hospital call the police? I have been in the hospital once for a suicide attempt that they KNOW about, and otherwise have absolutely no drug or criminal record.
Three: Would my disability be taken away from me, and with it, my home, if I went to the hospital? Because if my doctor is legally able/obligated to tell the govt about exactly how this happened, I would lose everything. And I'm almost rather take the risk and hope I luck out again.
Because I'm not GUARANTEED to die if I do not go to the hospital. But, with the fact that I took an MAOI not 24 hours before 360mg of DXM... I'm weighing my risks, and my options... My mother not knowing is the most important thing to me right now. I know, my priorities are in no order, but. I need to deal with this myself. I cannot put this on her.
Right now? I took the DXM about 4 hours ago, and I feel up there, but obviously, I can type. This took me longer to word than usual, but I'm not totally out there. I feel fine. No nausea, no diarrhea, no real physical symptoms to speak of.
I guess I'm just... Reaching out for a voice, here, anyone who's been down this road-- Besides the symptoms of potentially fatal seratonin whatevers that I can find via google, what am I on the lookout for that just screams 'okay your luck ran out get your butt to the hospital'? And just what world of hell am I in for if I -do- start experiencing negative symptoms, and having to go?
I reiterate, desperately, that right now, I feel fine save for the worry.
I weigh about 260 pounds, give or take, and took 360 mg of pure DXM robitussin because I am a fool. That was the only ingredient. Then, THEN I researched. Mid-trip. And found that my antidepressant is, in fact, an MAOI. Bupropion HCL SR 100 MG. I took one at about two o'clock yesterday evening, none today.
Then I start reading about seratonin syndrome.
I should give background here, and you're all going to call me stupid, and you are RIGHT RIGHT DING DING WINNER WINNER, but here we go.
I have bipolar type two and OCD. I live in Texas. I am currently on disability and have attempted suicide three times. Today? This was not an attempt. I felt great, and stupid.
But I don't want to die.
My concerns are twofold... Threefold... My concerns are many. Here we go.
One: If I willingly went to a hospital with the symptoms of seratonin syndrome, being 24, and told -them- exactly what I've taken and how I've taken it, they would legally not be allowed to tell my mother, correct? I could tell her it was just from a med change they did at the clinic I go to? A lie that would fall apart, but give me time to think, at least.
Two: Would I be arrested? The MAOI I took yesterday was my own. I have the bottle, the prescription, I get it through a medicaid funded clinic. The Robitussin was purchased with my own money, for myself. I drank it. Is this illegal? Would the hospital call the police? I have been in the hospital once for a suicide attempt that they KNOW about, and otherwise have absolutely no drug or criminal record.
Three: Would my disability be taken away from me, and with it, my home, if I went to the hospital? Because if my doctor is legally able/obligated to tell the govt about exactly how this happened, I would lose everything. And I'm almost rather take the risk and hope I luck out again.
Because I'm not GUARANTEED to die if I do not go to the hospital. But, with the fact that I took an MAOI not 24 hours before 360mg of DXM... I'm weighing my risks, and my options... My mother not knowing is the most important thing to me right now. I know, my priorities are in no order, but. I need to deal with this myself. I cannot put this on her.
Right now? I took the DXM about 4 hours ago, and I feel up there, but obviously, I can type. This took me longer to word than usual, but I'm not totally out there. I feel fine. No nausea, no diarrhea, no real physical symptoms to speak of.
I guess I'm just... Reaching out for a voice, here, anyone who's been down this road-- Besides the symptoms of potentially fatal seratonin whatevers that I can find via google, what am I on the lookout for that just screams 'okay your luck ran out get your butt to the hospital'? And just what world of hell am I in for if I -do- start experiencing negative symptoms, and having to go?
I reiterate, desperately, that right now, I feel fine save for the worry.