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Confessions-who are you really?

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I am also...


an AIM addict
a ball of confusion sometimes
an adventurer
a wanderer
a protector
to old for my own good
empathetic
able to pick up on things about most people don't
a partier
someone with more sides than most people know
plauged with women troubles
either very relaxed or very stressed
30 and 10 at the same time
 
I...

am emotional.
am overly sensitive.
am a dreamer.
sing in the shower.
think that there is nothing more beautiful than MUSIC.
love cats.
am rather anxious.
am a marijuana connoisseur.
love to read, write, create.
am creative.
"march to the beat of my own drum" ...independent.
am too passive.
am sometimes too nice.
have no balls.
am growing stronger every day.
am extremely chill, yet worry a ton about those i care about.

....
 
haste said:
I am me - I let other people worry about the labels.

No dis-respect to the thread, just my honest opnion :)
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I'm much the same. I don't personally like to analyse myself that deeply, that's up to others to do if they want to.
 
I am...

a home-body (at the moment) but an adventurer & partier at heart
regretful of my drug mistakes with meth and dramamine
afraid that I'll have my anxiety forever
in emotional pain
afraid to approach people
easy to talk to (when approached)
an ex-drug grower
a perverted joker
a nice guy
really really skinney
almost 20 years old :) (January 5th!)
an isolationist
a hypocrite
constantly lonely
a gossip
a horrible ex-friend
a horrible friend because I'm so self involved with my own problems
am emotional
am overly sensitive
am a dreamer
a person that thinks that there is nothing more beautiful than music
am suffering from Generalized Anxiety Disorder
am creative
am sometimes too nice.
am extremely chill, yet worry a ton about those I care about
am jealous of people who can use drugs and not feel like shit
am sad
am gay
am frusterated both sexually and emotionally
am afraid of the future
am considering suicide if I cannot get over my G.A.D. in the next couple years


YES I did copy and paste a few of peoples choices...simply because they applied to me as well :)
 
I am chaos, plain and simple. Nothing in my life goes as planned,... nothing in the lives of those around me go as planned. Everything falls apart in my hands, from lives to lottery tickets. My own life is a shambles, no matter how hard I work to make it better... I bring chaos into other people's lives too. A lot of the people that like to keep me around seem to need that dose of chaos from time to time... the people that don't stick around are either too chaotic to get on the same frequency, or can't deal with chaos in their lives.

Being chaos means to me that I am everything, and nothing. Chaos is theoried to be that from which everything sprung into being... however, it is also the void, the nothingness.

I have these thoughts in the shower... I do all my best thinking in the shower... I don't know why... it's like my own personal epiphany space... yet again, another story. I'm beginning to feel like Paul Harvey... and that's... the REST OF THE STORY. Yeah, most of you prolly don't get it, before your time.
 
i am:

missing my bf
lonely b/c he is not here with me
over emotional
a cryer
scared to stand up for myself sometimes
overreative
in love
about to move accross the country
tired a lot
afraid of not being loved
not disciplined
growing up faster than i ever imagined
 
I am a woman
I am a mother
I am a friend
I am a sister
I am a daughter
I am a neice
I am an aunt
I am crazy and eccentric
I am bubbly
I am energetic
I am a ntural tripper
I am loud
I am a big kid
I am a dancer
I am dominate and confident
I am stubborn
I am passinate about life
I am in love with psytrance and doofs
I am messy yet anal and neat at the same time
I am impatient
I am patient when i need to be most
I am caring and loving
I am a writer
I am an artist
I am a designer
I am addicted to clothes and hair
I am an environmentalist
I am addicted to the concept of true love
I am a dreamer
I am an idealist
I am sensitive and emotional
I am a social butterfly
I am cheeky and naughty and a big flirt
I am a wicked angel
I am beautiful in my own way
I am me
 
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think that there is nothing more beautiful than MUSIC.
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I.

very O-P-E-N M-I-N-D-E-D !!!!!!!

HAs been able to divide his PAST from PRESENT
And teh past has been torched with fucking napalm.



a traveller
an outsider
odd peg
musician
respect painters more than anything cause i can't paint
Is really excited about life
Loves growing older

Loves Psychedelic drugs

Smiles
doesn't want to fit in
enjoy's being alone.
but also enjoys being with people

lets his moods guide him.

a believer of spreadin "good vibes" as much as humanly possible

smiles


loves dancing


loves dancing with women
loves intamacy with women
lacks those hardcore...

but does not want sympathy, for i will take the risks

loves the rush from risks.
loves the rush from jumping off cliffs into water.
loves liquid sound.




i really like who i am.
i really like bluelight
and i really like this thread


feels a lot of empathy for the lonely shy ones out there...


a believer that things can and always will get better.


-keep your head up







[2c-t-2 tripping, and reading about all of you has been wonderful :)

i know i'm pretty egotystical on bluelight, but on 2c-t-2 i've stepped back and learned about many of you.. really good people here.]
 
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weird
individual
abstract
confused
emotionally challenged
different
open minded
harsh critic [of myself]
friendly
non-judgemental
ignorant
naive
artistic
talented
shy
modest
down
kind
depressed[?]

I used to good at putting on a false personality for people, pretending everything was just peachy, and I was content. Over the last two years that has gotten harder to harder to do; now it seems as if I can't do it at all.

I hate sterotpyes.
I am who I am.
Physical appearances dont determine who I am;
nor can one quality about my personality.
[I belong to no categories]
While society views me as an oreo-
a "black girl trying to act white"-
I see myself for what I really am.
I am me.
That's all that matters.

I paint. I draw. I sketch. I love creating. But I also love destroying.

Music is a daily part of my life.
Radiohead. Sigur Ros. Led Zeppelin-
bands that have kept me going through these harsh times.

[I am suicidal; but at the same time I know I will never succeed in killing myself, so at the same time, I am not]

I am an escapist.

I am alone.

I just am.
 
I have read this thread several times through. I have made a few attempts to answer it. Each time I don't hit the post button because my answers reflect my current state of mind and I know that somewhere, hiding behind how I am at the moment, is a much brighter person than the one typing this post.

For now, all I can confidently say, knowing it is the truth, is that I am empty, numb, confused and lost.

Hopefully, I will find my way soon.

- Kel
 
No such thing as an ex-alcoholic... ever been to AA? Once an alcoholic, always that way... ya can only suppress it... same goes with drugs... and sex(for me, anyway)... yea, I guess I'd be all of those I've mentioned mixed in with a little bit of neurosis, insomnia, and a whole lot of artisticism...:\
 
I am (amongst other things)...

an idealist

an avid reader

a great sister

a music lover

hardworking

nocturnal

quite silly

brave

too often a drunk

a pacifist

agnostic

occasionally milquetoast (in my new environment)

baffled

a fantastic parallel parker (in a manual, no less)

a l o n e r
 
**i am...**

a sister,
a friend,
an ex-girlfriend,
a crutch to lean on,
confused,
conflicted,
blonde,
average looking,
adventurous,
openminded,
accepting,
tolerant,
depressed,
easily bored,
short attention spanned,
a writer or terrible poetry:( lol,
an artist,
wild,
funny,
obnoxious,
confrontational,
antagonistic,
human,
a mistake,
lover of animals,
15,
a virgin,
silly,
semi-intelligent,
lack common sense,
full of hate and anger,
suicidal,
like to have fun,
dont like responsibilty,
but will live up to it,
loud sometimes,
am a proud weedhead,
a semi-alcoholic (lol),
a party girl,
a computer geek,
i..
am
 
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