Concerned about my sexuality - please help

[washingtonbound]

Hi all, I am writing this because I am going through some kind of a quarter life crisis. I have always been straight, was attracted to girls when I was younger, have had sex with three of them (most recent being 8 months ago). However, lately I have been fighting this inexplicable urge to fuck men. Idk when it came along, probably when I set my tinder to all male and got 5x more matches. Regardless of why, it is not comforting.

During an episode of psychosis I came out as pan, but reverted to Herero shortly afterwards. Am I just now coming to terms with my bisexuality, pansexuality? Lately I've been talking to guys on tinder and next thing you know I've got my dick and asshole out and blowing kisses. Just thinking about a hot twink getting fucked has got me all hot right now. Ugh.

Sorry for the rant I just wanted to know if anyone had any experience with their sexuality changing later in life with or without drug use. Thanks.

 

[szuko000]

Why mess around with labels in the first place? I get it society trains us to believe that sexuality is rigid and formed but I think its more fluid then people tend to believe. Who or what we find attractive can change so why not our sexual preferences? Its not like people want you to announce what your into so if you experiment and bit and find out it was a fleeing fancy is that such a bad thing?

I think what you are trying to do is find what makes you happy but your at conflict with what society thinks about it when really you should go out and find out what your into without worrying about who you are. To put it simply you are "washingtonbound" no more no less, you dont need to find the answer for others just yourself.

I cant answer the last question because i am attracted to females fucked up or not but if i was to find that to change i would like to believe i could accept it for what it is, an attraction to something no more no less

 

[alasdairm]

Lately I've been talking to guys on tinder and next thing you know I've got my dick and asshole out and blowing kisses. Just thinking about a hot twink getting fucked has got me all hot right now. Ugh.

why "ugh"?

sounds like you think these feelings are somehow 'wrong'? why is that?

alasdair

 

[washingtonbound]

Very insightful post. I agree sexuality is a fluid thing that undergoes changes throughout life. I guess my problem is not wanting to accept this fluidity.

 

[washingtonbound]

Sorry I could have phrased that post better.
I used the phrase "ugh" cause I was nursing an erection as I posted that. But yes I agree, I do have a hard time coming to terms with being attracted to men. I don't have any moral issues with it, I just think it's kinda nasty.

 

[One Thousand Words]

Would it make you feel better if this was simply a phase and you'll eventually decide that boys aren't for you and go back to only liking women? Fluidity flows both ways

 

[washingtonbound]

Yea I'm beginning to think that, I don't even like guys much I just like the attention.