Coming out to others about your problem or illness

[GregSmith20]

Has anybody found it helpful to come out to people about your struggles with Drug Use/depression/ emotional uneasiness?

About drugs sometimes I feel I'm having long term after affects from alcohol and benzo withdrawl despite not using them anymore.

Generally it seems the rule to keep it to yourself.
Sometimes I feel its hard to connect with people, make friends(that feel like real friends) or learn when somebodys trying to teach me something if I pretend I'm fine though.

Sometimes I do feel fine though it's just that if something's bothering me it gets in the way.

 

[OpanaMinded]

I'm still in detox stage but I have the yearning to tell people but my girl who's in the same place as me dosent want me to tell any one even if it's not about her.

 

[OpanaMinded]

Has anybody found it helpful to come out to people about your struggles with Drug Use/depression/ emotional uneasiness?

About drugs sometimes I feel I'm having long term after affects from alcohol and benzo withdrawl despite not using them anymore.

Generally it seems the rule to keep it to yourself.
Sometimes I feel its hard to connect with people, make friends(that feel like real friends) or learn when somebodys trying to teach me something if I pretend I'm fine though.

Sometimes I do feel fine though it's just that if something's bothering me it gets in the way.

How long have u been not using? Maybe Paws?

 

[Maxxine]

I didn't notice this thread til now..I wanted to share something I posted on another thread..I'll copy and paste..thanks for reading.

Hi, I'm new here and found this site by doing a google search on 'how does a heroin overdose feel'..I'm not proud of the fact I've been using drugs since I was in the womb thanks to my mom taking acid while pregnant. I've done it all..I have chronic pain from degenerative disc disease and neuropathy in my spine and have a total of 48 surgeries in my lifetime. I've been on opiates most of my life needless to say and of course my tolerance is quite high. I've been going through 180 perc 5's in two weeks because I can't control my pain issues..today I went to a pain clinic in Boston seeking help out of desperation and hopelessness..I wanted to get a pain pump which was offered to me 12 years ago but I turned it down..I suppose my tendency to be honest to a fault fucked me over..I spent two hours writing a heart-felt, honest letter to my doctor at the pain clinic telling him about my depression and debilitation when I run out of my meds..I begged him for help..over the last year I started doing heroin as an alternative for pain when I run out of my scripts and usually will snort it because it tends to have a cocaine affect on me which I prefer to nodding out..it kills my pain and I'm able to function like a human being..on my worst days of no opiates at all I've written suicide letters in my head to my dad and friends apologizing..I've even thought about putting my 16-year old dog to sleep with me because I know nobody will love him like I do and care for him the way he needs..I told this all to the doctor today in tears..begging..pleading for help..instead..they are now making me goto treatment next week and start subs..they will also inform my current doctor of my substance issues so I am sure to lose my meds..on my way home..a four hour ride in tears and pain I thought about the easiest way to end my life..after all I'm 45 and can't decide if I just don't care any more or I want to give it one more shot..I was seriously considering od'ing on purpose by simply buying 4-5 bags and using a needle since my tolerance for injections is very low..it sounds nice..just nod off and don't wake up..this is not a cry for help so please don't call 911 :/ it's simply the way things are..I haven't decided what to do since my dog is the one thing keeping me alive..but he is getting old and pained as well..if I do commit suicide I think I will do it this way..after all the doctors obviously didn't give a shit and now I'm stuck without any pain meds and will have to use dope for awhile..I don't lie, cheat or steal like the people around me do..I work hard online to make my drug money..and waste it..thousands of dollars..not to get high but simply to be without pain..I use heroin for medicinal purposes but obviously that wasn't a good enough reason also..I told the doctors I wanted to stop and just get a pain pump and my medical marijuana card..I'm lucky I was able to go home at all today..after reading the descriptions of people od'ing on dope it seems kind of mixed but mostly leans to a nice..yet darkly drastic way to die..I am afraid to goto hell though..kind of funny in a way..but I just don't care anymore..I appreciate the honesty I found on this site as it has helped me to consider things..no worries..for now I'm still here.

 

[OpanaMinded]

I didn't notice this thread til now..I wanted to share something I posted on another thread..I'll copy and paste..thanks for reading.

Hi, I'm new here and found this site by doing a google search on 'how does a heroin overdose feel'..I'm not proud of the fact I've been using drugs since I was in the womb thanks to my mom taking acid while pregnant. I've done it all..I have chronic pain from degenerative disc disease and neuropathy in my spine and have a total of 48 surgeries in my lifetime. I've been on opiates most of my life needless to say and of course my tolerance is quite high. I've been going through 180 perc 5's in two weeks because I can't control my pain issues..today I went to a pain clinic in Boston seeking help out of desperation and hopelessness..I wanted to get a pain pump which was offered to me 12 years ago but I turned it down..I suppose my tendency to be honest to a fault fucked me over..I spent two hours writing a heart-felt, honest letter to my doctor at the pain clinic telling him about my depression and debilitation when I run out of my meds..I begged him for help..over the last year I started doing heroin as an alternative for pain when I run out of my scripts and usually will snort it because it tends to have a cocaine affect on me which I prefer to nodding out..it kills my pain and I'm able to function like a human being..on my worst days of no opiates at all I've written suicide letters in my head to my dad and friends apologizing..I've even thought about putting my 16-year old dog to sleep with me because I know nobody will love him like I do and care for him the way he needs..I told this all to the doctor today in tears..begging..pleading for help..instead..they are now making me goto treatment next week and start subs..they will also inform my current doctor of my substance issues so I am sure to lose my meds..on my way home..a four hour ride in tears and pain I thought about the easiest way to end my life..after all I'm 45 and can't decide if I just don't care any more or I want to give it one more shot..I was seriously considering od'ing on purpose by simply buying 4-5 bags and using a needle since my tolerance for injections is very low..it sounds nice..just nod off and don't wake up..this is not a cry for help so please don't call 911 :/ it's simply the way things are..I haven't decided what to do since my dog is the one thing keeping me alive..but he is getting old and pained as well..if I do commit suicide I think I will do it this way..after all the doctors obviously didn't give a shit and now I'm stuck without any pain meds and will have to use dope for awhile..I don't lie, cheat or steal like the people around me do..I work hard online to make my drug money..and waste it..thousands of dollars..not to get high but simply to be without pain..I use heroin for medicinal purposes but obviously that wasn't a good enough reason also..I told the doctors I wanted to stop and just get a pain pump and my medical marijuana card..I'm lucky I was able to go home at all today..after reading the descriptions of people od'ing on dope it seems kind of mixed but mostly leans to a nice..yet darkly drastic way to die..I am afraid to goto hell though..kind of funny in a way..but I just don't care anymore..I appreciate the honesty I found on this site as it has helped me to consider things..no worries..for now I'm still here.

That's really shitty. But subs do kill pain quite well IMHO. What's your ideal dose a day of oxy?. And BTW don't off urself. Ur a good person like many of us who just got a shit deal. I wish I could post more but my kids are going crazy atm

 

[Maya]

I felt way much better telling a few friends and my family and luckily I was able to get support. Unfortunately for some people it wasnt easy but I am one of the lucky ones to have such a supportive environment.

 

[KratomDemon]

I've gone through withdrawals and failed 6 times and kept it secret. This time I broke down and told my wife and she has helped me immensely dealing with depression and anxiety. I wish I had come clean much much sooner

 

[Inside_Out13]

I suffer from depression and I also self harm by breaking my bones. It's a quite addictive cycle, because after I break bones I am prescribed opiates...and the downward spiral continues

 

[GregSmith20]

You shouldn't break your bones. Bones don't heal easily.
You could just bruise yourself that be safer.