lyricabuddy
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I'm trying to figure out if I had a psychotic break / schizophrenic episode, or if this type of trip (which I will explain) is common with anyone else?
Let me preface this by saying I recently came to understand God / Creation in terms of the 'simulation theory', where everything exists and is interconnected as part of a code, mathematics programmed into nature.
I feel like this new-found understanding of reality has been causing me to trip in a different way on dxm / nos than I used to before I learned about the simulation theory. I'm not sure if this is the reason for my hallucinations on DXM, or if I had actually "over stressed" my brain and was experiencing a psychotic episode. Any input would be much appreciated as I am concerned about my mental health.
I was on a high 2nd - 3rd plateau dose of dxm and was also hitting the nos (3 boxes of chargers) and eventually, every time I would hit the nos, I would get the feeling that I was hallucinating beyond what would be considered normal for these drugs. I kept getting a strong sense that I was accessing "the matrix" and seeing things which "weren't meant to be seen". Much like in the movie the Truman Show where in the end he is sailing his boat to the edge of the ocean to try to reach the REAL reality.
I was having brief hallucinations of the 1's and zeros flying everywhere and saw my body moving rapidly and precisely like a machine as if part of the code (just like in the movie and extremely hard to explain). I was also seeing subtle flickering in my digital clock and TV. At the time, I was truly convinced that something supernatural was happening and that I had reached an alternate reality.
I was convinced that the nos was allowing me to "penetrate" my bubble of reality just enough to see "the back end of the computer program" we might live in while on the high dose dxm. Overall the tip was pretty dark, every time I hit the nos, I kept feeling like I was seeing something that wasn't meant to be seen and I was now somehow an uninvited guest part of a secret cosmological society.
My question to you all: is this indicative of a psychotic break / my brain not being able to handle these drugs? My understanding is that your brain can more or less "snap" under too much stress leading to brain damage and I'm concerned that this happened. Has anyone else had something like this happen and how can I know if I am being safe?
Let me preface this by saying I recently came to understand God / Creation in terms of the 'simulation theory', where everything exists and is interconnected as part of a code, mathematics programmed into nature.
I feel like this new-found understanding of reality has been causing me to trip in a different way on dxm / nos than I used to before I learned about the simulation theory. I'm not sure if this is the reason for my hallucinations on DXM, or if I had actually "over stressed" my brain and was experiencing a psychotic episode. Any input would be much appreciated as I am concerned about my mental health.
I was on a high 2nd - 3rd plateau dose of dxm and was also hitting the nos (3 boxes of chargers) and eventually, every time I would hit the nos, I would get the feeling that I was hallucinating beyond what would be considered normal for these drugs. I kept getting a strong sense that I was accessing "the matrix" and seeing things which "weren't meant to be seen". Much like in the movie the Truman Show where in the end he is sailing his boat to the edge of the ocean to try to reach the REAL reality.
I was having brief hallucinations of the 1's and zeros flying everywhere and saw my body moving rapidly and precisely like a machine as if part of the code (just like in the movie and extremely hard to explain). I was also seeing subtle flickering in my digital clock and TV. At the time, I was truly convinced that something supernatural was happening and that I had reached an alternate reality.
I was convinced that the nos was allowing me to "penetrate" my bubble of reality just enough to see "the back end of the computer program" we might live in while on the high dose dxm. Overall the tip was pretty dark, every time I hit the nos, I kept feeling like I was seeing something that wasn't meant to be seen and I was now somehow an uninvited guest part of a secret cosmological society.
My question to you all: is this indicative of a psychotic break / my brain not being able to handle these drugs? My understanding is that your brain can more or less "snap" under too much stress leading to brain damage and I'm concerned that this happened. Has anyone else had something like this happen and how can I know if I am being safe?
