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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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I just can’t imagine a world where this ends. I really feel like I’m not the same anymore and never will be. Feels like I’m on the outside of my body looking in.
 
Nina2021 said:
Hello,

I just want to remember a warrior we lost in 2018 to this poison. https://suicideproject.org/author/agonizing/
May he rest in peace and let's hope psychiatrists learn about this tragedy.
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Well, i’am 15 months after 2 injections and i’am not recovered at all, after 13 months i started to have tinnitus, so idk maybe this will be my end too..
I was on jail for 6 months because some of my ex friends stoled a car and i don’t want to snitch them, and i can testify that jail is a vacation compared to this torture.

Anyways, after 15 months not only thing don’t get better, but they got worse, as i said I developed tinnitus. When some sort of health issue don’t improve but it get worse over the time we call it “degenerative” here in my country so i already see my suicide coming.

I’am just desperetely waiting to reach 18-24 months because someone says that it take this long to recover, so I have nothing to lose to reach 2 years after my injections, but if you ask me what i think I answer you by saying that there is no way that something that is lasting for 15’months and got worse, magically heal out of nowhere in the next 9 months.
 
rawbanana said:
That’s gonna be me too
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I think They know antipsychotics injections cause permanent brain damage and they don’t tell that outside the psychiatry, like something they have to keep hidden.

I think they chose to make permanent damage to someone when they see this person don’t fit into our society, he is strong Willed and have a critical tought, so they just lobotomize this “non-functional” person because don’t fit into our society standards..
 
rawbanana said:
I just can’t imagine a world where this ends. I really feel like I’m not the same anymore and never will be. Feels like I’m on the outside of my body looking in.
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Right now i feel like that too and that it will never come back,but people who recover say it does come back. I have read plentyof stories where they say they thought they would never recover. Lets ask @Invegatorture and @paranoid android if they felt the same?

Did you have any windows or periods of feeling better?
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Right now i feel like that too and that it will never come back,but people who recover say it does come back. I have read plentyof stories where they say they thought they would never recover. Lets ask @Invegatorture and @paranoid android if they felt the same?

Did you have any windows or periods of feeling better?
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I dont remember any windoes of recovery i just started to get better.
 
I discovered that tinnitus is a very good sign, because it mean that the brain is doing his work and it’s turning ON what risperidone turned OFF, but it won’t happen all at the same time (consciousness, emotions, motivations, perceptions, libido, cognition,etc..)

It take one thing at time, and the fact tinnitus came out after 13 months mean that my recovery process started at 13 months, this is where my brain started to work to heal but when it heal one thing but not the rest there can be new sympthoms that came out (usually tinnitus) is very common.

I remember in the past another dude got tinnitus before he start to recover and when all things come in place and all the pieces of the puzzle come together his tinnitus just disappeared..
 
RisperdalConsta50mg said:
I discovered that tinnitus is a very good sign, because it mean that the brain is doing his work and it’s turning ON what risperidone turned OFF, but it won’t happen all at the same time (consciousness, emotions, motivations, perceptions, libido, cognition,etc..)

It take one thing at time, and the fact tinnitus came out after 13 months mean that my recovery process started at 13 months, this is where my brain started to work to heal but when it heal one thing but not the rest there can be new sympthoms that came out (usually tinnitus) is very common.

I remember in the past another dude got tinnitus before he start to recover and when all things come in place and all the pieces of the puzzle come together his tinnitus just disappeared..
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Hopefully a sign or withdrawal symptom
 
My dream is to recover and go back how i was before, and get enough political power to create concentration camps where to put all the psychiatrics doctors/nurses (everyone who took part into psychiatry industry) and put them into these injections, then i let them recover fully in 1-2 years, then i will inject them again, and going like that for a long time.
 
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