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Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v11

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Since i was completely normal before my two risperdal consta 50mg injections, and 15 months later i’am not an inch recovered, do this mean I got permanent brain damage?
 
mona21 said:
Today marks 7 months of my last injection in march 27th . I had two injections of invega sustenna in deltoid muscle , 150mg and 100mg after 7 days. Not much has changed but sometimes I can feel anger , also very rarely i can have a laugh at something but thats exceptionally rare because i can count only two occasions when i could laugh. I never lost the ability to cry so I can cry since the beginning of this, crying and feeling suicidal doesnt help much. I can watch a tv show. My hygiene is still very poor. I still lay down in bed a lot. I gained 15 kilos and havent lost any weight . Zero motivation, energy , no feeling of music, sexual dysfunction still the same. My sister fell sick and got hospitalized so i had to take a flight to UK and I am here for 10 more days. I was thinking if I do a keto diet or water fast for multiple days would that help or not? Chatgpt says a prolonged water fast can even make recovery period longer. But wanted to know if anyone tried a water fast here to heal. I am losing all my hope and counting my days till next March. If i dont heal within the one year mark I might just suicide. But I really hope Allah heals me and shows me a miracle so that I dont have to suicide.
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Don't suicide sister, even if the thought is tempting as muslims we can't. In sha Allah you will heal.
 
toughdaysahead said:
Hi guys, I wrote this on my phone so sorry for the word spaghetti. I posted an update about month 7, detailing how things have gotten better. But month 8 and a week is really where I have found success. In fact I feel so great, I will no longer come back here or post here unless I go into psychosis.
Background info: I'd say I have I was born very high IQ. I was given 5 shots of invega 8 months ago. I have never had hallucinations, thoughts or voices that weren't my own or anything like that. The invega dropped my IQ by a minimum of 40 points.
Okay, I will describe my experience as so (especially over the past week) In the simplest terms, the complete opposite of coming ONto the invega, to the point where I feel 100% recovered. I sleep less. I eat less. But I feel better. My mind is sharp, thinking constantly. I have my midas touch back, as in, the past week I have picked up chess and guitar and have already gotten pretty decent at both, I am the GOAT at FPS shooters again too. I have perfect pitch again now, something invega took away too. I feel naturally happy. I feel confident. Everyone (coworkers, friends, household) around me has noticed a massive change. It feels like I have finally woken up from a deep sleep. I simply perceive more information and think more about it than what I was capable on the invega. Now the negatives, again I haven't really been hungry and sleep has been hard. My mind's eye (imagination) is so powerful, it can overtake my attention to the real world now. But I put that down to being high IQ. I wouldn't say I feel mentally unstable but rather the blockage that has cleared was very effective at killing higher order thinking, and now my brain is relying on itself to keep it healthy, so instead of a random drug keeping me sane it's up to me. The only thing I worry about is dopamine supersensitivity ie my dopamine system continues to get even more sensitive due to the invega withdrawals and I lose my mind (that I believe I have never lost), if that happens I will come back with an update. And guys, please don't kill yourself, I honestly love being alive, this past week has made all of my suffering and pain worth it, you COULD be 5 years from recovery, or you COULD BE 1 day!!! You don't know! I sure as hell did not think two weeks ago that my life would suddenly and immediately get better.

Side note: I have not been given much in life and I have had it pretty tough and rough. But I believe the universe has given me the strength to get through this, through all the tough and bad. I will rise above this all. I encourage you all to do the same and focus everyday on giving life 100% of your effort, you will be rewarded the same way I have been. I feel obligated to you all in the same situation AMA and I'll check back in 24 hrs (then I will never come back).
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I appreciate you updating us, what helped aid your recovery?
 
iraistired said:
after how many months pls and how many shots
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5 shots. Emotions came back gradually in the first 3-4 months though it felt like I was super sensitive to negative emotions when I first started feeling again, anger came with prickling skin sensations which I think may have been withdrawal but either way I was just glad to feel. To begin with it was mostly negative emotions I was feeling but now it’s all balanced out and I’d say my emotions are back to normal.
 
lukeflowz said:
Hopefully what you’re experiencing are early signs of recovery. Four months is the time where the dopamine blockage caused by invega, drops below therapeutic levels according to the graph I posted earlier. @demileigh at five months I believe started to feel better, hopefully your recovery will be a similar timeline, although it may be longer. Invega affects people differently- hence everyone will have a unique timeline.
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I definitely feel a lot better at 5 months than I did at 4. I think acupuncture has really helped me too like after my first acupuncture I had dreams like I would pre invega, my anxiety has balanced out and I’m not as tense as I was. I was so skeptical of acupuncture to start with but it’s undeniable how much it’s helped me.
 
demileigh said:
5 shots. Emotions came back gradually in the first 3-4 months though it felt like I was super sensitive to negative emotions when I first started feeling again, anger came with prickling skin sensations which I think may have been withdrawal but either way I was just glad to feel. To begin with it was mostly negative emotions I was feeling but now it’s all balanced out and I’d say my emotions are back to normal.
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Right now i feel quite angry as well. I am in the mid of my 5th month.when did your positive emotions start coming back?
 
demileigh said:
I definitely feel a lot better at 5 months than I did at 4. I think acupuncture has really helped me too like after my first acupuncture I had dreams like I would pre invega, my anxiety has balanced out and I’m not as tense as I was. I was so skeptical of acupuncture to start with but it’s undeniable how much it’s helped me.
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It's been more than 5 months for Mr and still feel the same
 
anonymoususer777 said:
I hope this is a sign of recovery too. I hope there is recovery from this drug. But i think the weather getting hot and symptoms getting worse needs to be explained. This isnt the first time i experienced worse symptoms in hot weather...

I really hope there is a recovery. I have heard horror stories of people on other psychiatric drugs. I hope invega sustenna can be recovered from. I wish recovery to everyone.
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Recovery is real, I just think it’s different for everyone. As for the hot weather thing, I’m pretty sure there’s a warning with invega to make sure you don’t overheat because it can cause heat stroke or something like that so if you’re in hot weather make sure you’re drinking enough water and staying hydrated… hit up some electrolytes and do your best to keep your body temperature regulated. Chuck some wet towels/ cloths in the freezer to drape over your head and neck if you need, chill in a/c or under a fan. Hot weather has me feeling pretty crap at the moment too so I’ve just been chilling in the a/c and binge watching anime, really want to get out of the house though
 
demileigh said:
Recovery is real, I just think it’s different for everyone. As for the hot weather thing, I’m pretty sure there’s a warning with invega to make sure you don’t overheat because it can cause heat stroke or something like that so if you’re in hot weather make sure you’re drinking enough water and staying hydrated… hit up some electrolytes and do your best to keep your body temperature regulated. Chuck some wet towels/ cloths in the freezer to drape over your head and neck if you need, chill in a/c or under a fan. Hot weather has me feeling pretty crap at the moment too so I’ve just been chilling in the a/c and binge watching anime, really want to get out of the house though
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You want to get outof the house shows your energy and motivation are coming back. I still am low energy and motivation.
 
anonymoususer777 said:
Right now i feel quite angry as well. I am in the mid of my 5th month.when did your positive emotions start coming back?
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I felt some positive emotions between all the negatives but seems like there was more negatives and they felt a lot more heavier which also made my anxiety worse. I’d say it all started to balance out between month 4 and 5 when I started acupuncture and CBT and started to get a handle on my anxiety.
 
One thing I was thinking when I was feeling negative emotions so heavily was like no wonder people get suicidal, it was unbearable at times and I would be thinking of every single thing I’ve done wrong in life especially when I was younger and didn’t know better, I would compare my life to others and just be in negative thought loops that had me hitting some really low vibrations so I would be constantly trying to snap myself out of it and be gentle with myself. Even if I were to never recover, suicide isn’t an option for me cause I have my child to look out for but i understand how going through this sort of thing could push someone to feel like that
 
demileigh said:
One thing I was thinking when I was feeling negative emotions so heavily was like no wonder people get suicidal, it was unbearable at times and I would be thinking of every single thing I’ve done wrong in life especially when I was younger and didn’t know better, I would compare my life to others and just be in negative thought loops that had me hitting some really low vibrations so I would be constantly trying to snap myself out of it and be gentle with myself. Even if I were to never recover, suicide isn’t an option for me cause I have my child to look out for but i understand how going through this sort of thing could push someone to feel like that
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I thought about suicide abit to. Especially when i first got out of the psych ward. But as i had had cotards syndrome and thought i was already dead being actually dead didnt seem so fun. But i in my own rather hedonistic way decided to live to get fucked up.

First thing i did when i got out of the psych ward was call up my old coke dealer for a few g's. I started banging to much coke at one time. I was shooting a 1/3rd of a gram sometimes and seizing up then my dad found me after a seizure with blood runnng down my arm and he called the paramedics. It was not a good scene. It didnt make me quit though when i got home i banged up more coke and again had a mini seizure.

I only quit when i finally got off the abilify and also got put back on morphine
 
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