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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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The one thing I appreciate is that invega gave me true ability to understand what "pain" is.

I have many deeply traumatizing events that occured in the course of my life.

So many mental tortures that happened to me in the past,

overcoming those trauma gave me more capability to understand others

I didn't know there was more pain in this world.

It almost feels like those traumas were so small pain compared to the loss I am experiencing in this phase of my life.

I literally lost everything, including money, friends, health, career etc not even mentioning the direct pain coming from invega.

But I am happy in one thing that I can synthesize with people with pain more deeply compared to the past.

I don't need to understand their pain with my brain anymore,

I understand the pain through my heart.

As a spiritual person, this is tremendous gain for me.

That sole fact compensate all the loss I have experienced.

And I don't need any luxury anymore and am content if I can be peaceful when I meditate.
 
destroylonely said:
that's a very good explanation, i was just trying to say that 'low vibrations' and excessive religious expression makes people worry. i have no problem with anyone praising god in their recovery, only the people who say if you don't praise him you won't recover. we have to remain strong, and honestly this community has been insanely toxic the past few days.
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lol this place is usually a superfund site, you must be new here. I plan on putting together an alternative on Discord if I fully recover.
 
had one of the best days of my life today, full of intense laughter with my friends. i'm far from fully recovered but when those small waves of happiness hit, it's almost like i forget the hell i'm in.
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
Schizophrenia is not real
Depression is not real
Bipolar is not real

We were were simply tricked by psychiatrists . Disgusting profession that needs to not exist anymore . Ruined my life but I’ll pray I heal .
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All these things are real lol.
 
Invega is the fucking devil. My God I'm so glad I'm past the worst of it. I was truly in hell there for a bit with the akathisia and the extreme anhedonia. The anhedonia is slightly better. But i dunno i still don't find things funny. I still feel off.
 
IOSIP said:
Invega is the fucking devil. My God I'm so glad I'm past the worst of it. I was truly in hell there for a bit with the akathisia and the extreme anhedonia. The anhedonia is slightly better. But i dunno i still don't find things funny. I still feel off.
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That's the thing about invega.

I still feel off.

This is not the things I used to feel pre invega.

I guess we need to wait at least one year to see near total recovery
 
wbga said:
That's the thing about invega.

I still feel off.

This is not the things I used to feel pre invega.

I guess we need to wait at least one year to see near total recovery
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I feel way better then when I started though all things considered I didn't believe you thay the restlessness would ever end. It felt like it would go on forever. So scary.
 
wbga said:
That's the thing about invega.

I still feel off.

This is not the things I used to feel pre invega.

I guess we need to wait at least one year to see near total recovery
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I’m over a year off and I still feel off. And I still feel dumb
 
When I left hospital they told me "you will keep feeling better everyday" they have no idea what they are doing. More like I will feel like I want to kill myself everyday.
 
IOSIP said:
When I left hospital they told me "you will keep feeling better everyday" they have no idea what they are doing. More like I will feel like I want to kill myself everyday.
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I just want to know how different if be today if they had of shot me with something else besides Invega.
Also you need to eat more than once a day. I was doing the same ate and drank once a day. Your body is suffering it needs nutrients. Even eating gave me no satisfaction
 
maryjaneforever said:
I just want to know how different if be today if they had of shot me with something else besides Invega.
Also you need to eat more than once a day. I was doing the same ate and drank once a day. Your body is suffering it needs nutrients. Even eating gave me no satisfaction
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Eating is all i do. I've put on 10 kilos at least. It's the only thing that gives me satisfaction.
 
maryjaneforever said:
I’m over a year off and I still feel off. And I still feel dumb
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IOSIP said:
When I left hospital they told me "you will keep feeling better everyday" they have no idea what they are doing. More like I will feel like I want to kill myself everyday.
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It is weird journey indeed......

I never believed I would have an idea about killing myself.

Total hell.
 
Everyday I wake up and hope this was dream....

and find out it is reality that you can't change anymore.

That struck me so hard every morning.
 
wbga said:
Everyday I wake up and hope this was dream....

and find out it is reality that you can't change anymore.

That struck me so hard every morning.
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Yeah bro I did some insanely stupid things during my psychosis to. Things I can't change. I'm lucky I didn't get in trouble with the police. But i hear you.

Reality is we cant change what's happened and we get to live in that reality everyday and its fucking tough
 
wbga said:
It is weird journey indeed......

I never believed I would have an idea about killing myself.

Total hell.
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I never thought I'd want to kill myself either. I guess you don't realise how bad you can fuck your life up until you fuck it up
 
IOSIP said:
Yeah bro I did some insanely stupid things during my psychosis to. Things I can't change. I'm lucky I didn't get in trouble with the police. But i hear you.

Reality is we cant change what's happened and we get to live in that reality everyday and its fucking tough
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IOSIP said:
I never thought I'd want to kill myself either. I guess you don't realise how bad you can fuck your life up until you fuck it up
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Yep life is fucked so hard.

That I can't deny.

Reality is so harsh now.
 
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