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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Anyway I leave the forum friends all those long trip to was devoted to this nightmare I take my life in hand now I must work and provide for my family I wish everyone a life of good health and be at peace I hope I would have helped someone and again thank you for those who appreciated me life goes on friend strength and courage ✊️
 
foodcrisis said:
i was reading about complaints of constipation a few pages ago, and i'd recommend just getting your daily intake of fiber if you don't, and also water definitely helps... cheese tends to make people constipated, so limit that if you're constipated ime.

be careful not to consume too much fiber though. maybe check with your doc about how much you are eating if you can't find a good resource for that online... they have some pretty delicious (or at least decent) tasting fiber bars that have borderline too much fiber.. kelloggs had a few high fiber cereals that were like 50% fiber back in the early 2000's. they had dried yogurt and they were really good. they took those out of the stores where i live though. i was thinking maybe they had too much fiber in them. like a 35% fiber bar a day will even have too much fiber or me sometimes... raisin brain i think has a little less than that. maybe give that a try if you like it... you could eat beans too if you don't like cereals and weird chocolate bars. vegetables also have lower amounts of fiber but enough to help.
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I've been doing a lot of diet research lately and there is nothing more damaging for your body than cereal. At least that's how it's looking with all the recent discovery's over the last 20 odd years in the field. The food pyramid everyone's been taught along with the "breakfast is most important meal" was basically a marketing ploy to a busines problem. Kellogs founder was also crazy, he invented the breakfast to help higher infertility, as he thought masturbation and sexual pleasures were bad. Anything that incites a spike in glucose is pretty much bad, because your body then needs to release more and more insulin to deal with that glucose spike to get it under control. Body should have around 1 teaspoon glucose in it at all times, 2 teaspoons and your health will be destroyed. Luckily your body's really good at managing glucose levels through insulin, but over time this system gets damaged by constant glucose spikes and stops releasing enough insulin, hence people require insulin injections.

Also as personal experience with severe digestive issues fibre used to absolutely wreck my gut.
 
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maryjaneforever said:
Anyway who wants to tell me how many months off INVEGA they are and how they’re feeling.
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3 off, am walking outside a lot more, can read/watch things a bit better, still don't want to do anything or interact with anything or anyone. Still can't comfortably use a computer. I hope to be at @fenec level of 90% in the near future
 
maryjaneforever said:
Anyway who wants to tell me how many months off INVEGA they are and how they’re feeling.
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Almost 6 months off. Some improvements but still feel garbage. I had a window where I felt somewhat normal and music sounded good but it only lasted a few days. Maybe gives some hope, but I feel like I had generated some new receptors and then the invega still in my body blocked those lol. Never ends
 
Getting better. Keep pushing and praying. Can’t believe I’ve been through this bs twice. Time to make up for the 2 years missed👏❤️
 
Ayden said:
Getting better. Keep pushing and praying. Can’t believe I’ve been through this bs twice. Time to make up for the 2 years missed👏❤️
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You just felt better all of a sudden like last time? Spontaneously? That's great to hear man!
 
We had a tree lighting ceremony in my city yesterday. I walked over to look at the Christmas tree, it was beautiful. I can feel the emotions of the holiday again. I rode past that same tree three months after my Invega Injections, in 2022, and couldn’t feel nothing. I could only see the colors, there was no joy in my heart. I felt nothing. I am grateful guys to have my life back, healing is indeed possible. I was on Facebook arguing in the Invega thread with this guy, he said there’s no way that I I healed from it. I went back and forth with him. I eventually blocked him, who would lie about healing from that wickedness? I didn’t have to prove anything to him, I’ve gone back to living my life. I only stop by to send offers of encouragement, if I recovered friends then you can too. I only look back with gratitude for recovering. I try to thank GOD every chance that I remember to do it. I don’t care how many shots they gave you, or how many pills you’ve swallowed, keep the faith, healing is indeed possible. I wish all of you a fast recovery, keep your head up!
 
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fenec said:
Agreed, very nice, it's a pleasure, thank you very much lol wallah, you're so dark and crazy, some envious people here, what's bad about what I said? say my girlfriend it's something friendly you have a stick up your ass you're stuck wallah it's serious
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Sorry, it's weird for a man to say that and some people are legit crazy on here. People can say some really weird shit that has no basis in reality.
 
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maryjaneforever said:
Anyway who wants to tell me how many months off INVEGA they are and how they’re feeling.
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I'm 19 months off. I have everything I used to have, just a little less of it. I related to your "meatsack with eyes" statement. After that, I felt like a dumb child with no feelings. Now I feel very intelligent like before and my thoughts spiderweb like they used to, but not as much. It's easy to find words and make connections again, but it's like it takes longer for information to "click" and reach a conclusion. It's a little harder to feel out what information "means". My pattern recognition is a little worse but it's there. I don't feel like I'm an order of magnitude below my old mind anymore. If I lost IQ points, I maybe lost 5 rather than 20. I feel like "the smartest person in the room" again. I was never a genius but I was in the "gifted" range when I had my IQ tested when I was 6 and I was reading at an adult level in 5th grade. I felt really bad about how stupid and intellectually blind I felt, how I couldn't remember anything or recall uncommon words I liked to use sometimes. My intelligence was a defining characteristic of mine for my whole life and I'm so happy I have it back.

The most difficult thing I had to deal with was my loss of sexuality and the numbing of my nervous system. I now have richer sensory experiences even though it's not exactly the same as before. My genitals aren't numb. My orgasms are pleasurable and a lot of the time masturbation is pleasurable in general, I just need a vibrator to do it. My libido is still very low and that's the main problem I have now. It makes me feel unlike myself. I would try having sex if I could, but I don't have anyone I'm attracted to living nearby and I'm never attracted to people I don't know really well.

I was an artist before this, but now it's hard to find inspiration, but inspiration does come, I just don't do anything with it (this has always been a problem because I have problems initiating tasks because of ADHD and autism). I feel less connected to the world, but I do feel connected to it. I love being outside again and going to beautiful places.

I feel for people, but not as much as before. Old me would have been completely flattened by what is happening in Gaza and Ukraine but now I shed a few tears about it and move on. It sort of makes me feel like a horrible person, that I'm "just like them", the soulless people I hate who can't bother to care. But I love my niece so much it makes me cry. I couldn't connect to her, I didn't feel what I knew I should feel towards children in my family. That's what you do with babies, you love them unconditionally and want to protect them to the point of anxiety, but I just didn't feel that way. I couldn't connect to anybody and it was so scary. I didn't care about anything at all, not even the fact that my death would make my friends and family sad. If I had a handgun, suicide would have been easy. Now I don't feel suicidal unless my PMDD acts up.

I'm capable of getting a job now. I don't feel slow and I don't think I give the impression that I'm slow anymore when I think I did. I don't think I'll have an art career anymore though, unless something changes with my creativity.

It's going to be different. But it's going to be ok. That's where I'm at.
 
okthen said:
You just felt better all of a sudden like last time? Spontaneously? That's great to hear man!
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Ya not 100% but definitely feel alive. Keep your head up. Felt horrible a few days ago next morning and sense I’ve felt 30-50%
 
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