Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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Thinking I might take my life like Bojana due to invega.
How long have you been off again, wasn't it 6 months? I'd definitely wait at least 2 years before you start seriously considering that option. I wanted to kill myself everyday for the first 3 months, and sort of promised myself if this hasn't gotten remotely better by the one year mark, I will off myself. But yeah I would just put off killing myself until tomorrow, each day. And thankfully those thoughts and urges went away.
 
If an antagonist is irreversible, it will remain bound to that receptor forever. The receptor only becomes “unblocked” once the body creates new receptors. This is commonly seen in aspirin platelet therapy, where Aspirin actions lasts for the life of the platelet (7days) because it is bound irreversibly. Half life refers to how long a drug acts in the body. So yes, in some ways you are correct, although since you are talking about an irreversible drug the receptor it’s blocking will never become unblocked but new ones will be created instead. The blocked receptors will eventually be broken down by the body

The lifespan of dopamine and serotonin receptors is not fixed and can vary from a few hours to several days. The lifespan depends on the type of cell and physiological conditions.





In general, neurotransmitter receptors have short and dynamic lifespans, with receptors constantly being broken down and new ones being created. For serotonin receptors, they are often regenerated within 1–2 days, and dopamine receptors typically follow a similar cycle. However, long-term medication use or neurological changes can influence the regeneration rate of these receptors.





Therefore, even if dopamine or serotonin receptors are blocked by a drug, new receptors continue to be generated over time, causing the drug’s impact to gradually diminish.
 
If an antagonist is irreversible, it will remain bound to that receptor forever. The receptor only becomes “unblocked” once the body creates new receptors. This is commonly seen in aspirin platelet therapy, where Aspirin actions lasts for the life of the platelet (7days) because it is bound irreversibly. Half life refers to how long a drug acts in the body. So yes, in some ways you are correct, although since you are talking about an irreversible drug the receptor it’s blocking will never become unblocked but new ones will be created instead. The blocked receptors will eventually be broken down by the body

The lifespan of dopamine and serotonin receptors is not fixed and can vary from a few hours to several days. The lifespan depends on the type of cell and physiological conditions.





In general, neurotransmitter receptors have short and dynamic lifespans, with receptors constantly being broken down and new ones being created. For serotonin receptors, they are often regenerated within 1–2 days, and dopamine receptors typically follow a similar cycle. However, long-term medication use or neurological changes can influence the regeneration rate of these receptors.





Therefore, even if dopamine or serotonin receptors are blocked by a drug, new receptors continue to be generated over time, causing the drug’s impact to gradually diminish.
True but new receptors continue to get blocked by that invega which is still being released into the body sadly. So have to wait for many half life's to pass
 
We’re just running off brain stem basically. They’ve robbed you of your basic human decency. Every part of your brain is blocked. It’s literally inhumane!
 
True but new receptors continue to get blocked by that invega which is still being released into the body sadly. So have to wait for many half life's to pass
I worry about what happens to the brain and body in the meantime until every last bit of the drug is gone. I previously made an analogy with switching off the lights on an apartment to go on vacation then switching back on, but in this case the apartment needs those lights in the meantime in order to function.
 
Thinking I might take my life like Bojana due to invega.
Bojana had Trinza and she didn't even wait until it was out of her body. It was not permanent. If she had held on until the total elimination time + 1 year she would have been fine. I tried to tell her that it wasn't even close to being out of her system and she didn't listen. You are in all likelihood going to be fine. Don't take any other psychiatric medication unless you really need to, exercise and engage with life, and you're golden.
 
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13 weeks

I don’t know why but I can now wake up at 7. I couldn’t wake up before 11. But I have some shortness of breath more often.

My motivation got so much better. Depression lessened. One month ago, I had this thought of killing myself and I will stay low life forever and this thought made me scared of everything.

Now I watch camping videos, asmr, music, drama series e for just relaxing my mind while doing nothing.

I developed habit of drinking tea as it makes better mood. Drinking teas helps me a lot.

I never breathed with my mouth before but sometimes I can’t breathe with nose only. So frustrating but it is better than panic attacks I had 2 months ago which has faded completely.

My logical thinking ability almost returned to normal.

Although I have motivation I feel weakness in the muscle and it is hard to excercise.

Concentration level is around 70 % returned. I can read book but like a adhd patient.

I hope I heal faster because I want to work or start business. I feel less confidence than before and afraid of everything. Everyone has fear but not this much. But I’m getting better than last month.

Sex drive is coming back slightly because I can feel beauty in women and get my thing erected but it is definitely weaker and less sensitive than before.

Overall getting better but breathing got worse for some reason.
 
I'm planning on ending my life this following week. When my family is at work is when i will do it. The damages I have from invega feel permanent. Every single day feels like hell. 6 months and God hasn't answered any of my prayers. I can't understand why God allows psychiatry to exist. More and more people are harmed from the poisonous medication and he does not do anything. He allows people to be harmed. Most likely God is the devil himself. My life is over. I'm tired of fighting. I'm not waiting 1-2 years so I can magically be healed out of nowhere.
 
13 weeks

I don’t know why but I can now wake up at 7. I couldn’t wake up before 11. But I have some shortness of breath more often.

My motivation got so much better. Depression lessened. One month ago, I had this thought of killing myself and I will stay low life forever and this thought made me scared of everything.

Now I watch camping videos, asmr, music, drama series e for just relaxing my mind while doing nothing.

I developed habit of drinking tea as it makes better mood. Drinking teas helps me a lot.

I never breathed with my mouth before but sometimes I can’t breathe with nose only. So frustrating but it is better than panic attacks I had 2 months ago which has faded completely.

My logical thinking ability almost returned to normal.

Although I have motivation I feel weakness in the muscle and it is hard to excercise.

Concentration level is around 70 % returned. I can read book but like a adhd patient.

I hope I heal faster because I want to work or start business. I feel less confidence than before and afraid of everything. Everyone has fear but not this much. But I’m getting better than last month.

Sex drive is coming back slightly because I can feel beauty in women and get my thing erected but it is definitely weaker and less sensitive than before.

Overall getting better but breathing got worse for some reason.
it’s been 13 weeks since the last shot?
 
I'm planning on ending my life this following week. When my family is at work is when i will do it. The damages I have from invega feel permanent. Every single day feels like hell. 6 months and God hasn't answered any of my prayers. I can't understand why God allows psychiatry to exist. More and more people are harmed from the poisonous medication and he does not do anything. He allows people to be harmed. Most likely God is the devil himself. My life is over. I'm tired of fighting. I'm not waiting 1-2 years so I can magically be healed out of nowhere.
The depression in the meantime is the worst. Keep fighting
 
Has anyone tried lions mane?
Yeah, don't do it. It may have made me worse, it may have been PSSD setting in, I don't really know. I think magic mushrooms might be more helpful but wait a couple years so you can get far away from your psychosis if you did have psychosis.

You are going to be okay.
 
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I'm planning on ending my life this following week. When my family is at work is when i will do it. The damages I have from invega feel permanent. Every single day feels like hell. 6 months and God hasn't answered any of my prayers. I can't understand why God allows psychiatry to exist. More and more people are harmed from the poisonous medication and he does not do anything. He allows people to be harmed. Most likely God is the devil himself. My life is over. I'm tired of fighting. I'm not waiting 1-2 years so I can magically be healed out of nowhere.
NO. You are going to be okay, don't throw your life away just because it's going to take a long time to get better! Don't throw it away over a lack of instant gratification.

God allows suffering because it is part of a greater plan we can't perceive. Good can come from suffering.
 
I'm planning on ending my life this following week. When my family is at work is when i will do it. The damages I have from invega feel permanent. Every single day feels like hell. 6 months and God hasn't answered any of my prayers. I can't understand why God allows psychiatry to exist. More and more people are harmed from the poisonous medication and he does not do anything. He allows people to be harmed. Most likely God is the devil himself. My life is over. I'm tired of fighting. I'm not waiting 1-2 years so I can magically be healed out of nowhere.
You haven't even given recovery a chance? . You will recover in 1 year . I had way more shots than u and im resilient . I haven't given up hope completely yet and even if I were to remain like this permanently I will find solutions such as medication or supplaments. No way I can consider suicide. Look at the last suicide we had. Imagine the pain Bojanas daughters are going to through and are going to live with for the rest of their lives.
 
I get seldom suicidal thoughts as well but I know it’s not me and I know that I am gradually getting better.

Even if this condition lasts forever I would just live enjoying the minimum of life. That’s better than dying.
 
I'm planning on ending my life this following week. When my family is at work is when i will do it. The damages I have from invega feel permanent. Every single day feels like hell. 6 months and God hasn't answered any of my prayers. I can't understand why God allows psychiatry to exist. More and more people are harmed from the poisonous medication and he does not do anything. He allows people to be harmed. Most likely God is the devil himself. My life is over. I'm tired of fighting. I'm not waiting 1-2 years so I can magically be healed out of nowhere.
What are your symptoms again ?

No sex drive is biggest?
 
Some perspective: I have very little sex drive since my brain operation. I also still have some degree of hearing problems due to a different problem - the one that had me punching myself in the head because it just kept happening and each time more damage set in.

I wish I had this problem coming off Invega because I know it is temporary.

I have autoimmune Menieres, and no, I can't wait a couple of years for it to magically get better because it won't. In short I am fucked and I know it. Not just because I know what this does, but also because doctors don't even want to fucking help. They give referrals and you have to hope for the best. One more episode and I'm unaliving myself. I'm going to have a talk with my parents because they need to know what is about to happen, they think I'm putting an act on, they have absolutely no idea they're about to lose there son. It could happen in 6 months, it could happen next week, could even happen tomorrow, but I've already set a plan in place, and that's it. I'm following through with it.

Some perspective. What most TAP and AAP withdrawal is, is a temporary problem, I've been there and had to withdraw from it. I thought my life was over. Then I had barbiturates (amylobarbitone 150mg+ per day for almost 6 weeks), and then swiftly thrown off it, and I was a mess for nearly a year and then had to go on Remeron and was on that for almost 20 years trying to break free from that chemical slavery (insomnia).

...And then my ears started getting systematically fucked by whatever the fuck this thing is. Doctors won't give me methotrexate or blood thinners, to combat literally the only two fucking things that this could be caused by - autoimmune or vascular "microclots". I mean fucking shit I don't even want to think about this because I know where this is headed for another breakdown.

I WISH I was only dealing with TAP or AAP withdrawal. I WISH. That would be a walk in the park because I know that is survivable if you are a musician.

But what I have...let's just say Dignitas..."for example, a musician who has gone deaf"...well, whadda ya fucken know? They even spell it out in black and white on a Dignitas paperwork when I got it in 2003. I mean, they knew then that people had valid reasons for unaliving themselves...I wonder if their position has changed? I bet London to a penny that it hasn't.
 
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