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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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maryjaneforever said:
I’ve been laying here for 12 months now, about month 8 I could get up again.
I miss the feeling of comfort laying in bed that cozy feeling.
That’s what I’ve done for a year lay in bed, read on phone, and smoke.
It’s so absurd that they can do this to people. What a waste of human life.
No comfort. No feelings. No thoughts. No emotions. No hunger. No thirst. No motivation. No tiredness. Just a whole lot of nothing.

I wish someone would have told me after the first month that it would take another 7. I thought I’d be sweet once it wore off in a month. I was so stupid.

I also think different now. I’m full of hate and misery.
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What injection did you receive and how many injections?
 
maryjaneforever said:
I’ve been laying here for 12 months now, about month 8 I could get up again.
I miss the feeling of comfort laying in bed that cozy feeling.
That’s what I’ve done for a year lay in bed, read on phone, and smoke.
It’s so absurd that they can do this to people. What a waste of human life.
No comfort. No feelings. No thoughts. No emotions. No hunger. No thirst. No motivation. No tiredness. Just a whole lot of nothing.

I wish someone would have told me after the first month that it would take another 7. I thought I’d be sweet once it wore off in a month. I was so stupid.

I also think different now. I’m full of hate and misery.
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Did you take any other medications during your withdrawal?
 
I don’t sleep much. Sleep was my saviour. That was the main thing sending me insane. I could always escape anything through sleep. Even now sleep isn’t the same. I just want to sleep!!! My brain is always on and it’s torture.
I sleep about five hours a night. I can’t nap. It’s hell. I used to be able to lay in bed all day and it be my saviour. Now it’s my hell.
 
I got invega two shots. I didn’t take anything apart from benstropine and Valium every now and then when I couldn’t stand it anymore.
 
No music. No weed. No tv. Just nothing all day every day. Suicidal thoughts like no other.

You know what’s the worst. When I say how bad I am and people say well what do you do all day? Yeah fuck off! I CANT do anything. I can’t even do my washing. I CANT. I just can’t.

And I feel like I’ve waited through this hell long enough. The pain the guilt the torture. Everything bad anyone’s ever said to me just repeating in my mind all day everyday.

Music and weed were my saviour and that’s been taken from me.
 
Can anyone here nap? I used to be able to sleep on command, now I can sleep one time at night, nothing more
 
maryjaneforever said:
I don’t sleep much. Sleep was my saviour. That was the main thing sending me insane. I could always escape anything through sleep. Even now sleep isn’t the same. I just want to sleep!!! My brain is always on and it’s torture.
I sleep about five hours a night. I can’t nap. It’s hell. I used to be able to lay in bed all day and it be my saviour. Now it’s my hell.
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I sleep between 5 a.m. and 7 a.m. also like you except that I have all day sometimes I manage to take naps, have you gained weight with the injections have you lost any since?
 
maryjaneforever said:
No music. No weed. No tv. Just nothing all day every day. Suicidal thoughts like no other.

You know what’s the worst. When I say how bad I am and people say well what do you do all day? Yeah fuck off! I CANT do anything. I can’t even do my washing. I CANT. I just can’t.

And I feel like I’ve waited through this hell long enough. The pain the guilt the torture. Everything bad anyone’s ever said to me just repeating in my mind all day everyday.

Music and weed were my saviour and that’s been taken from me.
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I don't understand I had 4 alcohol injections from Carnot that 150 mg every 28 days my libido it's much improved I have some positive emotions some a lot of negative emotions like sadness a little anger a bit of fear and but I have my period my morning erections I lost 7 kg so I don't understand I can do things now like cook take a shower brush my teeth but I admit that at the beginning weaning it was a monumental task all this I couldn't do anything, try treatments like acupuncture medicinal leeches and have a good healthy diet drink well eat well you have a good chance of curing completely in 2 years have you noticed any improvements since you stopped this injection?
 
Maymay169 said:
Thank you! This is my smile after healing from invega and having the love of Jesus in my heart 🤗 I don’t know what my dosage was but it took me about 9-10months to get everything back
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Did you slowly get stuff back month by month? Or was it big chunks of improvement after a long time?
 
maryjaneforever said:
I’ve been laying here for 12 months now, about month 8 I could get up again.
I miss the feeling of comfort laying in bed that cozy feeling.
That’s what I’ve done for a year lay in bed, read on phone, and smoke.
It’s so absurd that they can do this to people. What a waste of human life.
No comfort. No feelings. No thoughts. No emotions. No hunger. No thirst. No motivation. No tiredness. Just a whole lot of nothing.

I wish someone would have told me after the first month that it would take another 7. I thought I’d be sweet once it wore off in a month. I was so stupid.

I also think different now. I’m full of hate and misery.
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It's scary stuff ain't it? I lost the ability to talk after the 2nd shot so couldn't complain, which led to me getting a few more before being able to voice my concerns
 
maryjaneforever said:
I don’t sleep much. Sleep was my saviour. That was the main thing sending me insane. I could always escape anything through sleep. Even now sleep isn’t the same. I just want to sleep!!! My brain is always on and it’s torture.
I sleep about five hours a night. I can’t nap. It’s hell. I used to be able to lay in bed all day and it be my saviour. Now it’s my hell.
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Yeah sleep never felt normal since for me. Hard to explain. Instead of slowly falling asleep it's more of a lying there till I black out type of feeling
 
maryjaneforever said:
No music. No weed. No tv. Just nothing all day every day. Suicidal thoughts like no other.

You know what’s the worst. When I say how bad I am and people say well what do you do all day? Yeah fuck off! I CANT do anything. I can’t even do my washing. I CANT. I just can’t.

And I feel like I’ve waited through this hell long enough. The pain the guilt the torture. Everything bad anyone’s ever said to me just repeating in my mind all day everyday.

Music and weed were my saviour and that’s been taken from me.
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I got weed and music back, mostly. Sometimes it takes two years instead of one, but very few people have problems past two years.
 
Today is my first day of youth without food I just drink water I will try to do 7 days
 
fenec said:
I took three hits on a joint last month, it hit me a little if I even had a laugh
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bro plz quit weed fully. Yes you recovered but psychosis has a really high chance of coming back now that you have alot of dopamine in your brain. Just letting you know if you go psychotic again it will mean court ordered treatment for God knows how long and you might not recover this time. It's just not worth the psychosis risk .
 
TonyTonyChopper said:
bro plz quit weed fully. Yes you recovered but psychosis has a really high chance of coming back now that you have alot of dopamine in your brain. Just letting you know if you go psychotic again it will mean court ordered treatment for God knows how long and you might not recover this time. It's just not worth the psychosis risk .
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yes I know it was just a colleague he made me take two or three shots when I did my training but I didn't start using again, sometimes I tell myself it would be a lot of smoking for the cure since it increases dopamine but I would prefer it to return to normal normally without smoking
 
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