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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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TonyTonyChopper said:
For invega trinza the half life of deltoid injection is 84 to 95 days where as the half life in the buttock is 118 to 139 days. The deltoid half life is much shorter than gluteal and it could be the same for invega sustenna. All we know about it is that its half life is 25-49 days but since you got your shots in the deltoid it could break down much faster than if you were shot in the buttock like me.
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man how are you surviving this i don't understand. how do you cope with the emptiness?
 
Harmedbypsychward said:
man how are you surviving this i don't understand. how do you cope with the emptiness?
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I just gotten used to it. It sucked the first 4 months i was suicidal and was like i cant live like this the rest of my lives but as time went on I gotten used to the anhedonia and the emptiness in everything. Im just holding on to the hope that ill recover late this year or early next year and if i dont recover , it is what it is.
 
One bad story is able to give me horrible suicidal ideation. I cant hear or read any unrecovered stories or im legit gonna take my life. The video that nina said gave me depression
 
Youwillrecover said:
One bad story is able to give me horrible suicidal ideation. I cant hear or read any unrecovered stories or im legit gonna take my life. The video that nina said gave me depression
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don't let stories about people who never recovered ruin your day. You are already showing signs of recovery , be happy . Full recovery is within reach I believe it.
 
Antipsychotics truly make life despicable, 1 week off the olanzapine and while I’m not dieing or in danger per se still have the fucking anhedonia it feels like I left an important part of my brain in that faggot hostipal, I can’t even play video games to waste time anymore as a nagging part of my brain says this is pointless, plus I’ve no real motivation to do so, the only thing I find funny is that the doctors told my parents it’s a “safe” medication LOL! Still fat as well, English feels like a second language even though it’s my first, it’s like I can’t put things into words as good as I used to, don’t get me wrong I know this is a long process, the pills are probably stored in the fucking fat this medication put on me, rant over.
 
Injected with an unknown dose of olanzapine, than on the olanzapine pills for a month and two weeks.
 
Following 8 months of Haldol decanoas 200mg injection (4 ampoules) I stopped the treatment in June 2020, I had to face difficult withdrawal for 5 months / I developed insomnia so it was impossible to sleep (the sleeping pills were not effective I was completely exhausted mentally and physically / nights without sleeping hard) So I found rest thanks to quetiapine with the help of my psychiatrist. I had 600 mg since November 2020 which I was able to reduce until today to 150 mg. At 600 mg I was completely in the West tired +++ dizziness drop in blood pressure full of side effects. that's why I gradually reduced from 600 to 300 then to 150 mg soon I hope to reduce to 100 then 50 mg. I specify that I take this medication only for insomnia. My BDA has never reappeared, no relapse since my total and abrupt cessation of my haldol decanoas injections which made me suffer so much chemical straitjacket and many other side effects which made me suffer so much. I was arriving at the limit of my physical capacities hence the total cessation of medications. It took a year of stopping to recover all my physical and psychological faculties. a year later I still have some in my blood but until then bearable. The most hard is behind me. the side effect is insomnia which is still present due to this sudden cessation of Haldol. I hope that my testimony will be of benefit to all those who are treated by haldol decanoas. Courage with time everything will be repaired but don't live with large doses of neuroleptic (very harmful to our mental health) if he manages to recover by taking quietiapine I'm all but lucky ❤️
 
I really like his sentence with time everything gets fixed it's real we will all get over it
 
I went on a date today, I went to the beach and got ice cream. I was so dissapointed I didn't feel exhilarated by the waves of Lake Michigan like I did when I was a child.

I liked the girl I was with, but I think she's more friend material than girlfriend material. I'm glad I tried dating though, but I'm not sure if I'm ready to do this yet. I'm not all there yet.

I wish I didn't have PSSD. I'd be all better if I never took Prozac.

Um, did anyone else feel pressure in the middle of your head? I'm kind of scared something is wrong with my pituitary gland. I hope it's just reconnecting or something. It doesn't hurt, my brain will just feel tight for a few moments.
 
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elsour said:
Antipsychotics truly make life despicable, 1 week off the olanzapine and while I’m not dieing or in danger per se still have the fucking anhedonia it feels like I left an important part of my brain in that faggot hostipal, I can’t even play video games to waste time anymore as a nagging part of my brain says this is pointless, plus I’ve no real motivation to do so, the only thing I find funny is that the doctors told my parents it’s a “safe” medication LOL! Still fat as well, English feels like a second language even though it’s my first, it’s like I can’t put things into words as good as I used to, don’t get me wrong I know this is a long process, the pills are probably stored in the fucking fat this medication put on me, rant over.
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Please don't use slurs in this thread.
 
atensuna said:
There are other ways to phrase this that are less controversial sounding.
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What do you mean?
There's no other way I'm currently aware of, they won't believe me.
If I say it was Kundalini awakening, they will just prolong my cto even more claiming I'm not aware of my condition or something.
They are sick bustards.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
What do you mean?
There's no other way I'm currently aware of, they won't believe me.
If I say it was Kundalini awakening, they will just prolong my cto even more claiming I'm not aware of my condition or something.
They are sick bustards.
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They won't believe you? There's already bias then. You got to talk to someone new outside of that crap. I'd just say you became more aware of your self. Can you make strong statements that you did not do drugs? Don't make it sound all random and religious. They can't prove it? Use that to your advantage but don't push it. Make it sound logical and you observed things consistently. I can't tell you exactly what to say for a lot of reasons. I think the right person will just listen to you without trying to change what you are saying and let you off.
 
atensuna said:
They won't believe you? There's already bias then. You got to talk to someone new outside of that crap. I'd just say you became more aware of your self. Can you make strong statements that you did not do drugs? Don't make it sound all random and religious. They can't prove it? Use that to your advantage but don't push it. Make it sound logical and you observed things consistently. I can't tell you exactly what to say for a lot of reasons. I think the right person will just listen to you without interrupting you and let you off.
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It's not that simple.
You can't talk spiritual with science only oriented dudes, who believe there's nothing beyond the physical and that we evolved from fucking monkeys.
Better keep things the way they are and play smart with them.
Just know they false diagnosed me.
Psychiatry is based on guessing, they measure nothing. It's not even science, they jumping into conclusions without testing anything.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
It's not that simple.
You can't talk spiritual with science only oriented dudes, who believe there's nothing beyond the physical and that we evolved from fucking monkeys.
Better keep things the way they are and play smart with them.
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I edited my thing slightly but not much. Try to mix both or I dont think you will get out of it. It's called holistic I believe. You're dealing with people who are not holistic. Edit: I went way off topic. I am just saying it's not all black and white.

Those science only caused by your genes dudes are not the best at what they do in my opinion. They need to take the full picture into account. If you can make a case about the environmental factors, it should help you.
 
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atensuna said:
I edited my thing slightly but not much. Try to mix both or I dont think you will get out of it. It's called holistic I believe. You're dealing with people who are not holistic. The government has invested in classified programs. it's not too far out of the question, but don't go into that territory because most people who talk about that are not the real deal and just acting I assume.
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What caused your psychosis?
 
atensuna said:
I edited my thing slightly but not much. Try to mix both or I dont think you will get out of it. It's called holistic I believe. You're dealing with people who are not holistic. Edit: I went way off topic. I am just saying it's not all black and white.

Those science only caused by your genes dudes are not the best at what they do in my opinion. They need to take the full picture into account. If you can make a case about the environmental factors, it should help you.
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You might want to watch this:



In this video, he explains almost exactly what happened to me.
He mentioned that people who had Kundalini experience can lose their minds and get medicated because of it.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
What caused your psychosis?
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Edit: I would tell you, but I think there could be some sadistic or deranged people out there that can emulate it. It was psychological, to put it succintly.

In response to your last reply, of course they can medicate you for that because it's not common or culturally relateable depending on who you talk to, and that can give them more ground to prescribe you.
 
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