Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

[JoshuaGuillory36]

@JoshuaGuillory36 You don't sound well, you sound manic. Just be careful and try not to land in a psych ward again, but if you do, insist on a different medication. The safest might be risperidone, people seem to have weird impacts from switching under a year since Invega.

I sound great. And I didn't end up in a psych ward. It was more of a behavioral center, and I made the choice to agree to go to it (relatively, and in some ways I did not choose to go to it). It was not by force (though in some ways it could be considered under duress). First, I was discharged from the hospital by a nurse practitioner (a man). And then it took convincing by my Mom and me (for them) to agree for me to go to the behavioral center. In other words, I didn't agree in many ways to be put in the situation I was in, which led to me going to the main hospital and then eventually going to the behavioral center of the hospital. I had to talk with two people first before I was accepted to go to the behavioral center. It was my choice, not forcibly done. I'm never taking medication again. And I rebuke the idea of medication. If manic means I'm happy and free, and not controlled by government or society, then you're right. Nothing I said in my comments is irrational or insane. It's that I'm free and many of you unfortunately are slaves to the system or white supremacy or other belief systems or ideologies which keep you relatively brainwashed (not cleansed, but more so obtuse, not to be mean). I do appreciate your comment, and if you truly are concerned about me. It is good you commented so I could explain my position. And fortunately for me I will never end up in a psych ward or behavioral center again. I'm never taking medication. I am perfectly well, in Jesus' name, and I'm going to continue shining and doing the great work of the LORD. I encourage you to overcome the dead world of college degrees, high paying jobs, social status or popularity, and be free and unashamed completely of who you are. Johnson and Johnson sounds and are crazy and manic. Anyone with Neo Nazi, conservative ideas and medication is manic and crazy.

Peace and blessings, and God bless you. I'll never be enslaved to white supremacy or the games most of you all play in society. I hope you feel better and get well and overcome your pain and hell.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I think it's interesting that someone or any of you think I sound manic.
It's wise to explain to me exactly what I said which sounds manic to any of you, and then I can address it or explain it.
The game of counselors and psychiatrists and the medical community or field is to play games by making insults or unfounded statements.
Truthfully, I don't believe in any of the diagnoses that so-called medical professionals make. I don't believe in bipolarism, schizophrenia, schizo-affective, etc.
Manic means you're wise and alive like Jesus, if you're in control of your own life and you don't give your power over to the wicked tyranny of fascism or the state.
I encourage you all to continue to express your opinions and opinions about me. I greatly appreciate it...
Because of all the wickedness that is going on, that is being directed toward us, we have to find ways to vent. We have to do things that will not lead us to the unfortunate situation of being injected with or given (dangerous or harmful) medication.
Perhaps, for some of you, especially me, making videos to express my thoughts about things, and organize or master what I will say prior to me doing so, is wise and helpful in transcending evil directed my way and also as a way to further enjoy my life and relish in my sovereignty. We are sovereign. We are kings (or queens). Hopefully, you all know that. Hopefully you all know you are not robots, but free individuals or people.

Peace and Love! And God bless you all

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I'm officially 100 days since last injection. I feel maybe 5% better maybe lower its hard to tell honestly. My biggest issues right now are anhedonia, loss of thoughts/blank mind , loss of hunger thirst , no concentration , no motivation , sleeping for 12 hours still . The weight is slowly coming off from new diet , I lost 6 pounds since last week. I'm planning to see my doctor soon to see if he can give me Nardil which I heard is a very good antidepressant for anhedonia. Can't believe Ill have to wait another until Feb 6 2025 for the 7th half life if we assume the maximum half life time of 49 days. The half life could be even longer than that if you got shot in the ass which I did , all my shots except loading dose were in my ass RIP.

I have internal dialogue. My thoughts are amazing. And yes, there was a time after Invega when the internal dialogue was basically completely not there. But that is gone. I enjoy my thoughts and internal dialogue. I can only stress (or emphasize) it again and again and again, that the cotton or stone feeling (which Donnie Yeshuah used to describe that heavy feeling in the brain which shrinks over time and becomes less heavy) must completely go away. And every time it shrinks you should make some progress. That's how it's been for me. I feel better and better and better as it shrinks. For you, you may or may not have it, but that would be strange, because that is one of the main signs that the Invega injection is in you (and especially that it has caused side effects).

I urge all of you to strongly consider what I say. Others on here may not be completely honest, and others may not be as in tune with themselves as I am, and others may not have done things as conducive as I have for recovery, so it's wise to listen to my words. If this comment sounds manic to anyone, then going to the restroom and urinating and defecating must also sound manic or crazy to you.

Peace and Love! And God bless you all

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Get professional help. I would recomend gettting on zyprexa if they give you the option of a antipsychotic

God bless you two. Y'all both make me laugh. Your answer (Get professional help) and his response, of "I don't care" or "idc", the cat.
paranoid android and Youwillrecover, have a blessed day.
You may want to look at the moonlight or stars tonight, whether it's nighttime or not for you or will soon be so.

Peace and Love!

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I think this immerse suffering can move to some spiritual awakening. Its a chance to awake trust me. Dive deep guys. There is something more above the injections "damage"

I agree with that!

Peace and Love!

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Yup I didn't even know anhedonia existed till 2 months after my injection where I noticed games and tv shows were very boring so i stopped them altogether. I gotten used to the boredem since its all ive known for the past 12 months .

I'm telling you the truth: Hope for you is in "ThatTomGuy's" story, both on here and on reddit. He is the perfect example or person for assuring (you) there is hope at the end of the tunnel, especially if you haven't seen any to very little improvement in months.

Peace and Love! And God bless ya

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I believe she went two to three years without an appetite. She survived off of eating baby food. She wouldn’t eat anything. She ordered like instant pudding mixture. Her situation was really bad. I assumed she died from starvation. She wouldn’t eat or really drink anything. I believe she is from another country. I believe that she had six high doses of the injection. I will have to check my old messages on the Bluelight app, it goes back two years. She had issues where she could hardly walk. I think she had a lung transplant before being injected with Invega. This woman survived some horrific stuff. I was surprised that she messaged me today. I thought that I’d never hear from her again. I sent a message to her back in January on Facebook and she’s just now responding to me. She no longer logs into the discord app because people were continuously talking about ending it, so she left the group. I eventually left too. I log on to encourage the other people. I also share pictures of my grand daughter in hopes of putting smiles on some of their faces. Karen message to me was maybe one paragraph. She did say that she has some difficulties to overcome. I assume her range of motion because she was having a hard time getting around like before.
Before she was injected with Invega she made her income by recording videos. I think that she traveled around for work.
She laid around not eating for so long it probably affected the strength of her muscles. She didn’t mention anything about her libido because her message to me was really brief. I am hoping that she responds back to me. I will ask her more questions. I just told her it was nice to hear from her. I said that I hope that she will continue to keep in touch with me.
I will update you on any new information that she gives me.

This is another great story to ensure people that full recovery is indeed possible.
Really there is nothing for people to worry about.
The main thing is to stay positive and concentrate on getting past the emotional blunting and taking one day at a time.
From pretty much everyone's testimony, save a few, sexual function returns completely. And also insomnia leaves completely.
And most claim (very many people) that anhedonia leaves completely.
Trust me, I completely understand you about leaving websites, etc., because of negativity. I left here because the energy was very low. I still love everyone on here, but the spirit or vibe was in many ways downhill, so I went away and gained much healing or recovery. If I had to do it again, I would have done it the same way.

I love you very much! Peace and Love! And may God continue to bless you.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

Yep, my fellow comrades, there is light at the end of the tunnel. Don't give up. Keep on trusting in God.
Time will heal your wounds. Look for great improvement within the 6 to 12 month range if you haven't already seen much improvement. This life is easy. And as you get past the suffering of Invega, it will get easier and easier for you.

Peace and Love! May God continue to bless you.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

My hunger signal is very bad, like i still get hungry in the end of the day but i can fast for 15 hours and no hunger but when i bike i get hungry. I also don't nap cuz i sleep 12 hours and no emotions. going to a brothers graduation now will reply later

Well, that sucks. I pray it gets better for you. Emotional blunting will definitely be the primary, or one of the primary, things you will have to recover from before you feel normal. I know you already know that. But I'm letting you know based on my own healing and recovery thus far. That's good you're able to sleep. You get more sleep than me every day. But I know you would like it to decrease slightly by a few hours, I think. Possibly 8 to 10 hours you may like, or slightly less, if not that.

P.S. If you like 12 hours of sleep, then that's good for you. I remember before Invega sometimes sleeping as much as 12 hours, and it was good. It may not be good to sleep that much when it's medication-induced, if ya know what I mean.

Peace and Love! And God bless you, bro.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

What irritates me about this forum is that I can never tell whether I’m speaking with professional educated people or dropout looser weed addict douchebags. I don’t like to get to involved based on the fact I don’t know who my audience is

I understand you, at least in some respects. It would be good if people would get off drugs, and stop frying or wasting their brains. I don't believe in the institutions of college or workforce, nor do I really believe in the religious institutions, though I do believe in God. You really stung some people with the truth. I may have to get them some band-aids.

Peace and Love! And God bless you always, dear one.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

What irritates me about this forum is that I can never tell whether I’m speaking with professional educated people or dropout looser weed addict douchebags. I don’t like to get to involved based on the fact I don’t know who my audience is

Your style reminds me of Donnie Yeshuah's, the part where you are saying "I can never tell whether I'm speaking with professional educated people...." and his statement, "And second of all I really wanna make sure that I am choosing the right people to start working with." (c.o.i t., v. 3). Have a wonderful and blessed day.

Peace and Love to you, precious angel.

P.S. Anybody can disregard this comment. It's just something I thought about, so I commented.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I’m sorry u guys I’m not trying to start an argument it just frustrates me when we as a community try to put all the blame on everybody else BUT ourselves. I for one can admit that I have/had a problem with paranoia and needed some kind of intervention. I hate the medicine as much as you

Your words are cute. You sound like InvegaAnon, the part about "we as a community try to put all the blame on everybody else BUT ourselves."

I wish you well.

Peace and Love! And thanks

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

You guys think ill have permanent damage from this shit? Its scary that i cant even live my life

TonyTonyChopper is right.

What you need to concentrate on is that strange heavy feeling in your head decreasing. It's not heavy like dumbbells (not in that sense) but like something is stuck in your brain. I know the feeling and Donnie Yeshuah knows the feeling - a guy on Youtube who took the pills talks about it.

But it's always possible there is brain damage, but it's HIGHLY UNLIKELY. I think either the Invega keeps shooting to your brain or has a long bond from the initial injection, or from the last time you got injected, whenever that was.

Peace and Love! And may God bless you. May you recover fully soon, if you haven't already.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

@InvegaAnon Thanks for the advice. Your interpretation of me may not be wrong. Where we may not see the same thing is on our perception of it. I'm highly energetic. The way I behave would lead to miracles and revivals, like Azusa (Street Revival).

It's not until I have fully recovered (when my full recovery is manifested) that me as well as others will see how I completely am.
Everything that I'm going through with Invega has some affect on my behavior. The more and more I'm close to healing (fully) the more I'm completely acting (behaving) as or being myself. How I am now is much more closer than I was in May 2024. In many ways I'm completely me but I still have some ways to go.

I'm able now to really think things out with the brain fog being removed and able to live more in control of things with my emotions being here again, more fully active and alive. Yes, I was special in May 2024, and still am. We all are special, of course.

When insomnia completely goes away, and sexual dysfunction, and that heavy-stuck like feeling in the brain goes away, then I'll be completely me. Yes, we could agree I am completely me. But you know what I mean.

I'm completely me, how's that!!!!...

Peace and love, my love! And God bless everybody!

 

[UnluckyXeplion]

@JoshuaGuillory36 , You keep mentioning how brain damage is highly unlikely, but that's not the case.
These meds highly destructive to the brain and nervous system.
Some people don't recover at all.
I'm myself haven't regain the ability to enjoy or have fun even after 14 months off Xeplion, so don't say it's unlikely.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

@JoshuaGuillory36 , You keep mentioning how brain damage is highly unlikely, but that's not the case.
These meds highly destructive to the brain and nervous system.
Some people don't recover at all.
I'm myself haven't regain the ability to enjoy or have fun even after 14 months off Xeplion, so don't say it's unlikely.

It's HIGHLY UNLIKELY. (You have the right to feel the way you do, if that is how you feel.)

If you all step back and consider the comments you make, you'd realize they're partial. I've given the best advice. I've explained recovery better than or just as good as anyone. Which is to say, based on the recovery I've made thus far.

Just by viewing your comment, and other people's comments, it's a clear indication that you all want misery. You want to suffer. You want the mood to be depressed. You want unbelief. You want, in some cases, to give up hope.

Everything I said doesn't mean I don't sympathize with you or for you, because I do.

But we all have to listen up. I've made much progress. I talked about how fasting got rid of much, if not all, of the emotional blunting. I also explained how I was reactivated or rewired in emotions during May while watching that "stroke video". Some of you may get tired of me talking about that "stroke video." And some of you may be tired of me typing, or seeing what it is I've typed.

Prior to coming to bluelight as a user, I had already received an emotional extension, but I was still heavily blunted emotionally.

My advice to all of you is to document your story and recovery times, or lack thereof, and get together and do something to sue and/or bring attention or awareness to what is happening because of Invega. I will eventually make videos and do my best to make sure Johnson and Johnson and Janssen Pharmaceuticals are exposed.

Please get you some rest. Meditate on the goodness of God. You may try drinking distilled water more often. If you don't want to, that is your choice. And yes, there is always that possibility that Invega does do damage, to the brain, etc., or that, because of the length of time it's in one's system or has left an effect on it, recovery may be in some cases irreversible (if nothing is done), etc.

Peace and Love! God bless you! And take care! Life is good, so keep on living.

 

[UnluckyXeplion]

It's HIGHLY UNLIKELY. (You have the right to feel the way you do, if that is how you feel.)

If you all step back and consider the comments you make, you'd realize they're partial. I've given the best advice. I've explained recovery better than or just as good as anyone. Which is to say, based on the recovery I've made thus far.

Just by viewing your comment, and other people's comments, it's a clear indication that you all want misery. You want to suffer. You want the mood to be depressed. You want unbelief. You want, in some cases, to give up hope.

Everything I said doesn't mean I don't sympathize with you or for you, because I do.

But we all have to listen up. I've made much progress. I talked about how fasting got rid of much, if not all, of the emotional blunting. I also explained how I was reactivated or rewired in emotions during May while watching that "stroke video". Some of you may get tired of me talking about that "stroke video." And some of you may be tired of me typing, or seeing what it is I've typed.

Prior to coming to bluelight as a user, I had already received an emotional extension, but I was still heavily blunted emotionally.

My advice to all of you is to document your story and recovery times, or lack thereof, and get together and do something to sue and/or bring attention or awareness to what is happening because of Invega. I will eventually make videos and do my best to make sure Johnson and Johnson and Janssen Pharmaceuticals are exposed.

Please get you some rest. Meditate on the goodness of God. You may try drinking distilled water more often. If you don't want to, that is your choice. And yes, there is always that possibility that Invega does do damage, to the brain, etc., or that, because of the length of time it's in one's system or has left an effect on it, recovery may be in some cases irreversible (if nothing is done), etc.

Peace and Love! God bless you! And take care! Life is good, so keep on living.

I want to suffer? do you even read what you're typing??
Antipsychotics are harmful and some don't recover at all, it destroys dopamine receptors.
When dopamine receptors are blocked for too long, they eventually die off.

You have the audacity to say that we like to suffer or complain...
Go and spread lies somewhere else!

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

I want to suffer? do you even read what you're typing??
Antipsychotics are harmful and some don't recover at all, it destroys dopamine receptors.
When dopamine receptors are blocked for too long, they eventually die off.

You have the audacity to say that we like to suffer or complain...
Go and spread lies somewhere else!

I will continue to post on bluelight. And since I'm always truthful, I will continue to spread the gospel of truth.
There is no proof to date that anyone's dopamine receptors have been destroyed permanently by Invega.
That is not to say that it can't destroy receptors permanently, but there is no proof of it.
And that is not to say that no one has had what you describe as the dopamine receptors dying off.
I've brought the best energy here. Kiaf has done a great job as well.
Do you want heaven, or do you want hell?
If you want things to be good, keep the faith. Keep believing and receiving God's goodness.
Don't give up. You're free to state your opinions. You're going to get through this.
If you trust in God, you definitely will recover completely.
And yes, I will continue to spread my truth here.
And thanks for knowing I'm right and perfect always.
This is not me patronizing you, this is me thanking you for sending me good vibes of love.
Hugs to you and everybody. Life is perfect! I'm the king forever.
God can turn your situation around and take away your frown.
Get up from the ground of defeat and be a winner who beat Invega.
God bless you all. Peace and love to you.

 

[JoshuaGuillory36]

 

[DrZaius1]

If you are using high THC cartridges, which is synthetic most likely, then you can get psychosis.
You need CBD to balance THC out.

I never used carts, only Marijuana, over that 7 months it was only about 40g total I smoked. I don’t know if it built up in my system or it was the last 14g half bag I got that caused it. I really enjoyed smoking until the voices and hallucinations started, I didn’t even consider it was the drugs causing it. I thought it was spiritual beings talking to me when it was just my own brain playing tricks on me.