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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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destroylonely said:
been wheezing a lot when i never used to, starting to think invega can cause respiratory issues.
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Coughing is a recognized side effect.

I guess I'm just shocked that so many people seem to be given depot injections of the stuff.
 
4DQSAR said:
Coughing is a recognized side effect.

I guess I'm just shocked that so many people seem to be given depot injections of the stuff.
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Because it's the quickest and easiest solution. I can't believe i willingly took the poison. Thinking the tablets were making me feel better. Absolutely worst mistake of my life.
 
I just noticed two that paliperidone is an active metabolite of and older antipsychotic called risperidone. Janssen holds the patents for both.

The more I look, the more dubious the stuff seems to me.
 
4DQSAR said:
I just noticed two that paliperidone is an active metabolite of and older antipsychotic called risperidone. Janssen holds the patents for both.

The more I look, the more dubious the stuff seems to me.
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Have you had an injection?
 
IOSIP said:
Have you had an injection?
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No. I was prescribed quetiapine as a mood stablizer. It just resulted in my sleeping 18 hours each day and feeling doped up when I was awake.

The freaky thing is I was prescribed 200mg/day and quit after a week. I went back to the psychiatrist a year later who said 'oh, we have discovered that 25mg is actually a more appropriate dose'. I lost ALL faith at that point and learnt to manage my mood by regular sleep, regular food, abstaining from alcohol and getting more exercise.

Imagine if I HADN'T gone back to the psychiatrist. I'm sure there must be a lot of people zombified by huge doses of the stuff who think 'well, maybe I would feel worse if I didn't take the medicine'. But not me - A doctor has to explain to me why they wish to prescribe a medicine and why they have selected a specific dose. If they can't answer those two questions without thinking, I don't take the medicine. I learnt from that experience.
 
4DQSAR said:
No. I was prescribed quetiapine as a mood stablizer. It just resulted in my sleeping 18 hours each day and feeling doped up when I was awake.

The freaky thing is I was prescribed 200mg/day and quit after a week. I went back to the psychiatrist a year later who said 'oh, we have discovered that 25mg is actually a more appropriate dose'. I lost ALL faith at that point and learnt to manage my mood by regular sleep, regular food, abstaining from alcohol and getting more exercise.

Imagine if I HADN'T gone back to the psychiatrist. I'm sure there must be a lot of people zombified by huge doses of the stuff who think 'well, maybe I would feel worse if I didn't take the medicine'. But not me - A doctor has to explain to me why they wish to prescribe a medicine and why they have selected a specific dose. If they can't answer those two questions without thinking, I don't take the medicine. I learnt from that experience.
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Yeah well consider yourself lucky because this shit is fucking poison.
 
I really wish I never got born. I hate that we get brought into such a cruel fucking world. People are awful. Why can't people be kind to each other? Even me im a prick to. I don't want to be alive anymore. But I'm to scared of dieing to do angering about it. I feel completely miserable.

I dont know if this is invega or just the consequences of my actions and the reality of my situation.

I feel like my life will never be the same since this pyschosis. I just want the freedoms I once had back.

Anyways just my daily bitch session to anyone interested
 
IOSIP said:
I really wish I never got born. I hate that we get brought into such a cruel fucking world. People are awful. Why can't people be kind to each other? Even me im a prick to. I don't want to be alive anymore. But I'm to scared of dieing to do angering about it. I feel completely miserable.

I dont know if this is invega or just the consequences of my actions and the reality of my situation.

I feel like my life will never be the same since this pyschosis. I just want the freedoms I once had back.

Anyways just my daily bitch session to anyone interested
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World is filled with pain.
 
This was the reality I guess.

I was blinded with my own hormones telling me this world was filled with hope and with effort you can achieve something.

It was all fantasy.

The world was already dark and empty.

The friends I cared so much before invega, they just say they miss me but that's all they do.

All they care about was their life, not mine even though this was partly caused by them.

Meeting only because they needed me for their problem.


Relationship was empty.

Girl friend is the only one who is still left and caring about me.

She is not fun to talk with but care about me.


The world was filled with pain and darkness already.

I was just blind with dopamine and serotonin and other things.

After I lose everything what's left is the actual reality that I can't deny.
 
Everything I planned and dreamed before invega was just dream and fantasy that I couldn't achieve anyway.

Nothing was achievable anyway.

I just woke up to reality of me.
 
IOSIP said:
I'm so fucking miserable. I never knew I could be like this until I fucked everything. Now the pain of my mistakes haunt me.
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Have you thought about what would have happened if you didn't take invega?

Was your life so brighter in reality?

I had so much hope and actually believed in those things can happen and my life was content and fulfilled with happiness already but I just realised that it was just dream.

I was happy with hopium.

I lost all that hope and that's why I am sad but if I think about it more I just realise it was all dream afterall.
 
wbga said:
Have you thought about what would have happened if you didn't take invega?

Was your life so brighter in reality?

I had so much hope and actually believed in those things can happen and my life was content and fulfilled with happiness already but I just realised that it was just dream.

I was happy with hopium.

I lost all that hope and that's why I am sad but if I think about it more I just realise it was all dream afterall.
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Had i not had pyschosis, I would still have access to my medications for anxiety. Now I'm under some fuck head psych forcing me into weekly prescription pick ups like a drug addict loser.
I just wish I didn't have psychosis. I'm ao angry at lofe that this has happened to me. I want to die.

I wouldn't be in a good spot but I'd certainly be better off had I not had psychosis. I made dumb decisions while manic on weed and dexies. I regret so much.
 
All the dreams I had back then,

Was it really something that will make me happy?
Was it really something that will make me happy?

this is the question I am asking these days.

Maybe. Maybe that was something I needed and made me happy
but still I think it wasn't the ultimate goal I wanted to achieve
but I was obsessed with those plan.

It wasn't possible after all.
Maybe Invega happened for a reason.
To give me this tremendous pain to realise something I have forgotten

What's left now is the pain.
Only pain is left.

I exchanged everything I had including dreams, future plan, stability, friends, country
with PAIN.

It must be very precious when it costs so much.
I have to make it useful....

That's my copium
 
IOSIP said:
Because it's the quickest and easiest solution. I can't believe i willingly took the poison. Thinking the tablets were making me feel better. Absolutely worst mistake of my life.
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Unfortunately I did the same stupid thing. This stuff ruined my life, and I only had one injection of it. I am coming up on three years from the day when i was hit with this poison. I am looking forward to maybe year 5, but things have gotten better. I am able to enjoy things and actually feel my feelings in small amounts as compared to say the first year or so after getting dosed with it. I still walk around in a fog, and have little to no motivation to do even the things that I used to love to do. Everything else is more than a chore to try and get done still, but as I said, things have gotten noticeably better overall. I was barely able to speak correctly or even do simple mental math for the first couple months after the dose. I truly cannot believe that stuff like this is being used on people in the name of better health/medicine. What a sad state of affairs for everybody that has had to take the drug, and also the people who know the patient.
 
DrMike said:
Unfortunately I did the same stupid thing. This stuff ruined my life, and I only had one injection of it. I am coming up on three years from the day when i was hit with this poison. I am looking forward to maybe year 5, but things have gotten better. I am able to enjoy things and actually feel my feelings in small amounts as compared to say the first year or so after getting dosed with it. I still walk around in a fog, and have little to no motivation to do even the things that I used to love to do. Everything else is more than a chore to try and get done still, but as I said, things have gotten noticeably better overall. I was barely able to speak correctly or even do simple mental math for the first couple months after the dose. I truly cannot believe that stuff like this is being used on people in the name of better health/medicine. What a sad state of affairs for everybody that has had to take the drug, and also the people who know the patient.
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Are you taking other medicines?
 
The fact that I will eventually die comforts me.

I am obsessed with death lately
 
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