I remember my recovery well, or rather my recoveries, most of the time I forced myself to walk, first 6 km a day, then I walked double 12 km a day, little by little I started to feel better and to feel emotions again, but over the years I I've changed a lot, before I didn't spend much time on my cell phone, or watching series, in recent years I've become very closed in on myself, I've decreased my relationships with people (and I miss them very much), and I often have negative thoughts, I've noticed that about 5 or 6 months a year I'm depressed, then the depression goes away, more and more energy comes, and then... boom I lose control and the psychosis comes back... I think I'm bipolar